If You Were Born in 2893...
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Now deep in the melancholia of summers end. It went far too quick for me this year and without enough resources to fully enjoy, with a sweeping but shortlived spiritual buzz at the beginning put to rest by more hard realities midway, and strangely the best weather happened when I could least afford to take advantage of it. A good fortnight of ( Read more... )

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The 100 degree heat has forced me to camp out in my basement this afternoon to get any kind of work done, again very grateful for the laptop, as the ground floor and the second floor are uninhabitable. I already went swimming and our local pond is now like a bathtub so thats no good. My neighbor has AC but I couldnt get my wireless signal, I dont ( Read more... )

Now into the long hot dumb post 4th of July days. Tried to get some stuff done today, but crazy huge on and off thunderstorms rolled through the area this afternoon with stroboscopic lightning and hail and deluge, and of course the electricity was lost around 2 pm, for our town and another 5-6 surrounding too. I took a nap and tried to wait it out ( Read more... )

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I think maybe Friday was some kind of zero point, the hot black fulcrum of a collapsing state order....a few major problems suddenly got fixed today, like my nearly defaulted student loan (and concurrently my credit) situation....my friend who escaped to north CA just called offering me a place to stay out there in Sept-Nov... tomorrow Mercury goes ( Read more... )

Im trying so hard to keep things together but everything is disintegrating completely out of my control.

Every day I get more and more rejections from jobs, loans, friends, my "partner" and everything.

Another few weeks of this shit without some deflecting miracle and Im fucking dead.