it's when your life flashes before your eyes in your dreams
dying is your biggest fear
superstitions dont look so dumb anymore
& you're starting to think that, that broken mirror in your purse has something to do with the fact
that you might be really sick.

I'm done.
I'm tired of waiting around for you, especially when I know I'm wasting my time
I dont even remember the last time we talked.
I'm guessing it was that uncomfortable phonecall.
I knew it would end in an awkward silence, & both of us having mixed feelings.
well me at least.
somewhere in the back of my head I thought there was a possibility of ( Read more... )

it's when I walk alone
through the path that leads to "home" or in other words hell
when I realize
I'm alone.
my best friend is the wind.
& the only thing left to fall in love with is the freshly cut grass
it's when I daydream,
I think about how much I hate my life
& coming back to reality is the worst feeling to feel.
it's when I cant sleep at night
'cause ( Read more... )

I detect a sudden change in your voice.
I get a sick feeling in my stomach
when I think about what's gunna happen between us.
nothing.
all I wanna do is cover my face
& not be seen
so I can avoid people telling me
how much of a fool I am
for falling in love with the one guy thats
more than perfect.

I'm sick of thinking
of that one awesome night.
when I think of you
I wanna think of the many awesome nights we've had.
but there's only one
the one that I keep replaying over & over again in my head.
I'm sick of always thinking of you
& how perfect you are.
I'm sick of you not knowing
that I care.
all I can think about is
how happy you make me.
I love that ( Read more... )

you tell me you're "proud" of me
'cause you can see the effort I put forward.
but I know that you're thinking that I screwed up.
again.
I know you dont think I try
& truthfully, I dont.
but it's your fault.
from the start you were cynical.
I dont wanna hear your suggestions.
I dont wanna hear what you have to say about me
& what I'm doing wrong in my " ( Read more... )

I dont know what to think anymore.
I'm so confused
& you being the perfect person you are..
hurts.

I keep gettin flashes of your childish eyes.
you're cute little boy smiles
they make me feel like I'm in second grade again
like you're the boy at the other side of the playground
that I'm afraid to say hi to.
except
I can talk to you
I can tell you things I dont feel comfortable telling others.
I love how you can open up to me
tell me things that most ( Read more... )

it wasn't suppose to be like this.
I can still hear the fire works.
each blast making my head pound harder.
I thought it was a joke.
I didn't know why she was crying.
I didn't know why everyone was changing their clothes
trying not to be seen.
I didn't know why the ambulance was there.
I didn't know anything.
I was told to mind my business.
THANX!
after they ( Read more... )

your ability to be such an asshole
is rare.
others may call it talent.
I cant seem to determine how
you can tell me to kill myself
& then act like
no tasteless words occured.
your words are meaningless to me.
now.
you behave as if I'm not there
your act is unconvincing.
I catch your eye occasionally
hoping you can see behind mine.
hoping you can see what's ( Read more... )