So I'm sitting here eating chocolate covered pretzels and I actually feel kinda sick from the mass consumption ( Read more... )

I knew it would not be an easy conversation ( Read more... )

"Not to be too direct, but why are you trying so hard ( Read more... )

I will write again, I promise. . .

I have had my good days and I have had my bad days. My good days have been fair and my bad days, well, they are days kind of like today. When I find my mind not being able to banish the thoughts, when I walk into the grocery store and fall far below sad and when I sit at starbucks, reliving the moments, rethinking the situations and wondering, ( Read more... )

One of my biggest downfalls is that I don't know the emotion anger. When you think of all the things that would logically make a person angry, I respond to the same situation with hurt. I feel hurt before I feel anger and sometimes, no matter how much I want to slam a door, punch a wall or scream, I usually just find myself quiet, isolated and ( Read more... )

If I would have never let myself feel his touch, I would not know what it would feel like to miss it ( Read more... )

Two and a half years ago, I told myself that if I was ever lied to again, I would walk away. I told myself that I would rather be alone, than be with someone and hurting. I pick up my journals from that point in life and I hear what I say, only to realize that, although my life has changed so much from that nite, I have not changed at all. I am ( Read more... )

It's been a long time since I have written. Not only here, but my tangible journal has felt the same neglect. I don't know why. I have always loved to write and since early elementary school, it was my outlet, my therapy. When I don't see my thoughts and feelings down on paper, it is almost like I am unsure what I feel, because on a typical day ( Read more... )

With all the time that I have nowadays, one would think that I would update more often than I do. Perhaps I hesitate because, like with my written journal, I know that I could never catch up nor say enough. Is that a good enough reason not to write at all though ( Read more... )