"what if..." she had begun to ask him ( Read more... )

i found some letters the other day.

i put them in a box in my room.

they are from a girl who said she would be there forever.

i thought forever meant forever.

i guess i was wrong.

I awoke to the sound of rain dripping down my window. My hair was sticking up and my covers were wrapped around me in a way that made me never want to get up from bed again. I could feel my body sinking into the cotton layers of my bed. I was still half asleep, so I thought I would jump into the shower to try and wake myself up. The feeling of the ( Read more... )

I feel like I've been punched in the stomach about a 100 times. I've felt like this all week, i feel so alone. I feel so weak. I've fallen back into this black hole that comes every winter. I hate it so much.. I'm trying to push it away so hard. To pull it out of me, to get it out of me for once and for all. Not for it to come back next year. I ( Read more... )

I can't belive this, I can't belive this, I can't belive this, and I can't. I have been better than before, but you left me here, thinking. You may or may not understand what it's like to rise from temporary darkness. But in case you don't or have forgotten, i'll remind you of what I used to go through. Everytime I looked in the mirror, I couldn't ( Read more... )

i have so many things running through my mind right now. i cant think straight more than half the time. i look back at myself a year ago. and i wonder what i did to myself. what happened. in a year. i changed every moral and standard i lived for. i changed who i was to be something im not. and i know that now. thats why i hate fakes. kids trying to ( Read more... )

"no matter who it is, what they do, who they believe themselves to be, they all still judge, sterotype, lie, and are more or less cruel. everyone is, it's how we function."

Everyone is hypocritical. You can hate it, and you can deny that it's true, but it is.

...and i thought of the ocean, of rocky islands, and creaky ships. the thought of being a hermit, being a lighthouse at a northern facing point, watching the sea give and take, rise and recede, watching the salt deteriorate over time, the tide surging over a rocky shoreline, and structures falling apart over the years. the thought contented me, ( Read more... )

why does life put us in such unfortunate predicimates? some people say that everything happens for a reason. I dont know if i agree. I mean, I have been in a lot of situations where things have happened that didnt effect me at all. It seems to me that they had no purpose. Maybe they did effect me and i just didnt realise it. I would like to think ( Read more... )

hes so cute!