hi la losers... lol. that was on dodgeball. anyway, i am good. no, great. just tired thats all. so jamie and i are still engaged. i love him so much. we havent had any probs and we are doing good (knock on wood). gosh, do i love him. he leaves may 22nd and the time is nearing... i cant stand it. everytime we are together i let him know how much i ( Read more... )

hi. this thing is going around and i think i have caught it....:( i have a stuffy nose and my throat is itchy. i think it is more allergies than anything. but i am still cautious around lilly. i dont want to get her anymore sick than she already is. she has a stuffy and runny nose and a slight cough. she was finally getting better and boom!! she is ( Read more... )

lilly is sick, poor thing. i cant stand it when she doesnt feel good. her sinuses are acting up. she has a runny nose, and stuffy, and its draining down her throat so she gags while she is sleeping sometimes. i hate it....:( i keep praying and she went to the doctor. she got some medicine and it seems to be helping some... i am so tired. she was ( Read more... )

i was going to ask what todays date was but it showed me on here.... everything is okay. lilly is 2 months. she was on the 10th. i think i wrote about that already. she got her shots, i think i put that too. i got my nails filled in.. when it gets time for them to come off i am just going to leave them off for a few weeks so they will have time to ( Read more... )

everything is going good i guess. i started school today. christmas break went by so fast. i am taking trig again and its going to be pretty much effortless until we get to chapter 6. thats where i left off last semester. i am okay with my classes. i guess this semester will be okay. and i have lunch with some of my friends so i wont be alone this ( Read more... )

well... some things have happened that have left me.... i dont know. insecure, numb i guess you could say. i really feel like i feel nothing. i dont feel my heart beating anymore. i cant tell if i am even alive or not. it kinda feels like i am in a bad dream and i know that i will never wake up from it. jamie and i got back together, on the 27th of ( Read more... )

i know that its been a while but right now all i want to do is bitch i guess you could say. i am sooooo pissed and i dont know exactly why. jamie and i got back together but this just happened 2 days ago. we were apart about a month. well yes i went out on a date. but just one!! and jamie knows this. i went out once and it wasnt even a date. it was ( Read more... )

i am in the library at school. im in my second block and we get out once this block is over. then we dont come back until jan the 6th. or 7th i cant remember.i am glad. i failed my trig class. that sucks. i can take it over next semester buti dont want to. jamie called me last night and he is leaving in may to go to boot camp. he signed his ( Read more... )

jamie left for fl. yesterday. i told him not to call me from the hotel so i havent heard from him in a while. he will come and see lilly on sunday. it is gloomy today. tomorrow is the last day of this semester. and we get out early so yeah!! then i can spend some time with friends and family. i am doing good. i am just tired thats all. i cant wait ( Read more... )

we got our computer back and the net up and running. i hope it stays like this. i like not being booted off. lilly is sleeping right now but she will wake up soon so i dont have long... anyway... jamie and i are still not together. he e-mailed me saying that he doesnt like us being apart... hes all sad and upset.. we are moving soon. i hope. my ( Read more... )