Heaven will never be more enticing than hell is terrifying. I have striven from my adolescence to embrace that ideal love of God, both the concept of the deity anthropomorphized as the Son of Man, and also that perfect emanation of Goodness which is the very fulfillment of my being-of all being. In the transports of this love, I was to rise above ( Read more... )

Just for the record, I must defend myself against a charge that was made some years ago, but I left alone: I did not desire the one in 2004 or the one in 2006 because they were unattainable, but precisely because they seemed attainable. They seemed as if they should be mine, by right. The fit was like a glove, in each case. Moreover, I had ( Read more... )

I have something which I need to write down because I need a reminder, in the time to come, of what I had thought now ( Read more... )

It was like a death, almost--it was almost like coming going to the home of a friend to find him slumped over his kitchen table. Only if you imagine that scenario can you understand the horror that seized me last December when I discovered that I had crushed my flash drive in my bag. The casing had seemed like such a durable exoskeleton. I still ( Read more... )

It's Maundy Thursday and I find myself alone this year. Last year I had Polifemo; on each of the two years before I had jessicaem; before her, I had fellow students from the University, and even before that a Hindu friend came with me (I believe that was 2003) as I participated in the solemn liturgy of this evening and then made my rounds to the stational ( Read more... )

While I was in Paris--I believe it was Friday, but I'll have to verify the day--my paternal grandmother died. Not long after I had posted the last entry, I checked my telephone to find a good many messages, text and voice, from my mother. She stressed the urgency of her subject, but did not reveal it over that medium. The last message I received ( Read more... )

I always plan my time so grand: I think, "There should be plenty of time to accomplish X,Y, and Z. Everyone else does it ( Read more... )

School began on time (Thursday, September 6), in spite of all our worries. We the teachers saw even in the very week before we opened our doors how disastrous the situation could be if construction were delayed any further ( Read more... )

When the candlesticks start talking, it's time to go to bed. Apparently I'm invading their private time.

Okay, so you know my metaphysics well-enough to see how, for the sake of my sanity, I could not couple myself with an atheist. Let me add to that that I am now a professional Catholic. Part of my job is to support and contribute to the culture of Catholicism at my school; I am not required (nor could I be) to believe anything. However, it is ( Read more... )