heh. I got a bit of the carrot cake cup cake I ate this morning. That was gross. I wasnt even trying till I felt it was comming up. Yeah... So I had weird binge this morning so I took the dog for a walk. then ran/jogged in place for awhile. It was good I guess. I still feel like a pig after eating that quesidillia.... Yeah... I hate me ( Read more... )

I just had dinner with my parents I felt like I was eating a huge amount of food its not funny.  I feel so fat and lazy now... I cant wait to go swimming tonight. I also ate a late lunch so right now I just want to purge it all back up.... Ugh... I hate me...

Apy

Well I guess I'm making progress I dont knwo but Weird thing happend i was stitting at a table with some of my friends and my community group leader made a comment " Your getting to skinny Liz. Its like You've lost a pound every time I see you" I just chuckled. Then she said " Go eat a pancake" She smiled I told her I dont like them and she said " ( Read more... )

Hey my lovelies. I feel so sore right now... I just woke up and my bones are acheing. The scale says i gained some weight... I feel fat.

I'm going to church in a bit Ta for now. I might write more later.

<3 Apy

Hunger Pains suck ass. They hurt so bad right now! Ugh! not gunna eat though I'm gunna live through 'em cause I dun need foor and its late my metabolisum is slowing down and I dont wish to spoil my evening. -nods-

<3 Apy

PS I <3 my new hair cut!! makes my face look fatter though... -.-'

Apple cider Vinigar is SOOO gross alone! I was binging and to stop my self I downed a teaspoon of it Before I got to far in teh binge. It was discuating! So I guess we could say its my new way to keep my self from binging. I'll just have to make sure i dont take more than 2 teaspoons. I heard more than that in one day is bad for you... -shrugs ( Read more... )

BINGES ARE TEH SPAWN OF SATAIN! I'M BACK UP TO FREAKING 154! ARGH!

Any hoo... cause I'm lazy I'll just CTR+ C a post from a forum I did...

Mission near impossible to be possible

I think my mind has just been excited about summer causing me to eat more. SO This summer I'm cracking down and I'm going to loose weight so In teh fall when I get back to ( Read more... )

I binged.... And feel horrid.... I never should have givin in... I feel horrible and stuffed to teh brim.... Cant purge it either... I'm so fucked up right now.... I lost 3 pounds I'm going to gain them all back and more I swear! I hate my self!

CW: 147 ( its going to come back up! I just know it!!)

TT.TT  I hate me....

~Apy

Shitty Damn stupid pizza ( Read more... )

Second time today I guess ( Read more... )