I don't have a lot of hobbies. Part of the reason is that I have stringent rules on what's an effective use of my time: it's either got to be something that improves the way I feel about myself or something that's social, that helps create good bonds with people I enjoy. Playing a video game or seeing a movie feels like a waste of time; a ( Read more... )

My former psychologist, while not particularly good (I don't need someone who just constantly listens), did suggest that I needed to pick up a hobby, something I could do on my own. We talked about possibilities, and we discussed geocaching, but I never really tried it. A few friends of mine also said I needed some hobbies, and while I understood ( Read more... )

I think I had a good day today overall. I did good at work, and at home I finished the chores I didn't finish this past weekend, did 400 calories of cardio, and had dinner with friends. And got to TS some. :) I am still re-calibrating what a good day means though. It is nice to look forward to some things again. No call back from the psych yet ( Read more... )

I had 3 goals for the weekend: find a psychologist, apply to new jobs, and finish my profiles on dating sites. It was more or less successful. I left a voice mail for my chosen psych and will make sure I'm prepared for our consultation so I can find out quicker if he's good for me. I browsed OK Cupid some, but I didn't see many people that grabbed ( Read more... )

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I went somewhere today and found something interesting.

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http://yfrog.com/3duelj

I've been having a lot of cognitive dissonance lately. In a way, it's a good thing, because after a turbulent year and a half, I'm finally back to where I was before - self-examination. In another way, it's a bad thing, because the conclusions drawn are not always easy or settling ( Read more... )

I've been posting pretty sporadically, but one of the things I missed doing, and one of the things that crocodile tells me he missed, was my top 10 albums of the year list. So I figured I'd get one together, belatedly. These are my 10 favorite CDs of 2009. Same rules apply, as always: it's MY favorite CDs list, not anyone else's. Honestly, I don't know how ( Read more... )

I'm going to make a concerted effort to start updating my LiveJournal again. I know, I know, I say this all the time, and this time likely won't be any different. But the intent is there! I was considering deleting LJ because I only posted when I was depressed/anxious/upset about something, and it really made me come off pretty poorly. (I use ( Read more... )

"It’s not unlike an athlete who lets you know before the game that his arm hurts; if he gets lit up for seven runs in three innings, you know why. If he throws a shutout, he’s a hero. That’s why it’s considered pussy to mention that your arm hurts before a game. It is pussy. If you’re well enough to play, zip it."

I'm well enough to play.