Hello Livejournal, My Old (very old) friend. It's me, the obnoxious girl that can't control her feelings or get out of unhealthy relationships because she's innately self destructive ( Read more... )

SO over living in a house that doesn't sleep ever. It's not as bad as I make it sound, I guess. I just feel farther ahead than most people. I've been there, done that. It's not why I came here. I can hear EVERYTHING.

It isn’t more complicated that that.

It is opening to or recieving the present moment, pleasant or unpleasant, just as it is,
without either clinging to it or rejecting it.”

I feel I have made a great effort over the last year or more to keep these things in mind while simultaneously attempting to hone the skills and confidence that I had ( Read more... )

I'd almost forgotten what it was like to have strong arms around me. I guess I'm still getting used to being a free agent, even after a year. I can be spontaneous and GO when I please. I have no one to answer to but myself. With the exception of a glass or two of wine every so often, I still don't drink. I can see beauty in the people around me. ( Read more... )

(This was my honest-to-god first reaction. I read "the news" in some bulletin and I typed this into a reply. I had intended it to be short and to the point, but then I looked up and this is what was on my screen. I then copy-pasted it into a notepad and did not reply to the Poster of night-ruining bulletins. I did however, save the rant for you.)

( Rant. Short and Sweet. )

I miss the time in my life when I trusted myself.
At least myself.

I dont understand how one act could have resonated so far. Shaken so much more that my immediate surroundings. I dont like having your life in my hands, so dont tell me that it is. Honestly, I'm slightly disappointed in that thought process from you...mostly because it scares me.

I love you. And I am very proud of you.

I feel very second-string. Unimportant.

Often.

Today was terrible, but it was not horrible. This is mostly because I am not a starving or orphaned child in Thailand.

Yes, please cleanse your life of us. Please destroy all fragments of anything that remind you of something you dont want anyway. And please consider it a personal betrayal. Gee, you're very bitter about things you dont care for, aren't you?