I am tired of not feeling alive. 
I hate that every thing I say is so negative in these, but this is how I feel.
I am tired of having friends that don't care about me and feeling like I don't matter. I feel like I'm going nowhere and that I have almost nothing left to bother with anymore.
And just about everything feels like this, not just friends. I ( Read more... )

I am so sick of being screwed with.

I wish people would stop running away from things they disagree with. People can't stand criticism and I admit I don't enjoy it but I don't fucking run away from it a majority of the time. I know I make mistakes and I know people are going to point them out. I can handle that without getting mad and acting ( Read more... )

I am hardcore freaking out about graduating. I have a ton of ideas of what I want to go to college for but I feel like none of them are going to stick. I think I would get bored with the job and want to move onto something else.
I don't want to be fucking grown up and mature.
I'm going to be freaking 20 years old next year. And that scares me to ( Read more... )

So basically the beginning of this post is to say fuck you. I'm sick of all the fake pieces of shit around here. I'm sick of the awkward conversations that mean do nothing but symbolize the disintegration of friendships. I'm sick of feeling like I'm the only one who cares. I'm sick of being worried and scared and nervous and anxious. I'm sick of ( Read more... )

Honestly I wish I could say something positive about most of the people in my life. But unfortunately, I can't. 
Spotswood is full of moronic, back-stabbing, selfish assholes. I'm sure there are a few decent people that I might not associate with much, but right now I can only think of two.
It's not fun being so negative, but hey, what can ya do when ( Read more... )

I get to see my babyluffagus tomorrow! I'm so excited. I just hope everything works out okay and nothing goes wrong.
I didn't go to school today; it was nice. I have to go tomorrow til 12:30 and then I'm going to my grandma's and then Alex is coming.
I need to spend more time with my grandma though. I miss her :(
It is really cold in here. It was hot ( Read more... )

You make me so happy.
I love you. 
Don't ever leave me.
3 1/2 days.

I wish life was easier, but at the same time more exciting. I'm so tired of waking up and going to school, seeing the same ugly, fake assholes every single day. I come home and sit on the computer til 9 o'clock when Alex calls. And that's the highlight of my day. That's all I care about. I hate thinking about the money I'm going to need to move to ( Read more... )

People would just leave me alone. I wish I wasn't so well known so that I wouldn't have so many rumors spread about me, and that my myspace wouldn't be hacked or false blogs made. I don't even know what's going on but it's really upsetting.  A girl shouldn't be made to feel like a slut just because she's been with one guy and enjoys sex with him. I ( Read more... )

I am about to lose my mind. I miss Alex so much. I just saw him a week ago but this sucks. Hopefully he's coming to visit me next weekend. I hope I babysit this weekend so I can get some money, I'm kinda running low. No one I've filled out an application for has fucking called me back. Faggots. I need a fucking job. I need to be with Alex. I need ( Read more... )