a lot has happened since i last updated. i have my AP test monday, i had my big performance sat for Amber's studio. yea, this weekend made me feel like shit. i felt unimportant, worthless, and basically that nobody really cares, except my family and thats only because they are required to. a night that's meant to be only for me gets turned around ( Read more... )

uh huh, this weekend was pretty bad. i did have friday off and that was great, but other than that it was ehh. i had to go to my mom's house for easter, which i hate because its a christian holiday and something i don't even believe in. christmas is different cause its really commercialized, but easter, i mean come on. if your not christian a lot ( Read more... )

fuck the stupid shitty standardized tests. i have another fucking one for the next two days. and this one is not even a field test. if i don't pass this, i can't graduate high school. fuck a duck. this sucks. i don't want to go to school tomorrow. bleh...

i should go to bed...

last night. it was grrrrreat. yup yup. i got to give away free condoms, i was the condom fairy. hehe. i felt loved because everyone was following me around. it was so great, i have never felt so wanted in my life...

i really have nothing to say....

i'm trying to decide whether or not to go to franklin st. tonight, so if anyone has any imput, tell

my life is so boring. its raining now, almost flooding. i kinda wish it would flood, then i wouldn't have to go to school. its not really that i hate school. i don't, cause i know what hating school is and this is not it. school just makes my life monotonous. i feel like i'm just going through someone else's life rather than living and making my ( Read more... )

damn, this spring break has been hectic. but fun. yea, i'm bored. i have stuff i probly should be doing, like homework, but i don't want to. i don't want to go back to school tomorrow. this break was just too needed. i can't believe i only have nine more weeks of school, only nine. fuck yea. this summer is gonna be great. plus i only have a little ( Read more... )

yea, last night was bad. after my whole going crazy thing i got completly trashed. i should learn not to do that anymore cause i do stupid shit when i am. supposedly i called my guy friend james and left some weird ass message in his voicemail. he said it wasn't that bad, just that i said i needed to talk to him. w/e, it coulda been worse. the ( Read more... )

i don't know what to do. i'm going crazy thinking about this. and its not like i can tell anyone. i called jonathan and talked to him about this tonight. he couldn't understand why i could be like, yea ok and tell people. i think i should call someone else and talk to them, but will that help? this is just driving me fucking mad. i can't stop ( Read more... )

yea, fuck trust, fuck friends. god, so when u tell someone who u think is ur friend to not tell anyone, and i do mean anyone, about something that happened, u expect them to keep it a secret. ok, so what do u do when they go and tell ur best fucking friend, and half of the people you hang out with. and then they tell someone who can't keep their ( Read more... )

today was good. tomorrow is culture fest, this huge thing at my school that is basically a free day. we get to go around and do fun stuff and listen to awesome speakers all day. and they're having all these great vendors come. its just gonna be fun. this is all good in spite of the fact that my mom came down tonight, and i was so aggrivated that i ( Read more... )