Alkaline Trio was good and i guess it was only fitting to follow it up with excessive drinking and regrettable behavior.  Chelsea and I created a large heart logo with some choice words for our ex-girlfriends outside her apartment in chalk.  Yea, I feel pretty cool.

I'm tempted to take the last bottle of wine down to the beach and finish it myself.  It hasn't been the best of nights.  Headaches and the same goddam dreams await.

heres to getting way to drunk by like 7:00 and waking up at 2am. i'm pretty sure today was awesome but i'm going to have to think about it more tomorrow.

Each song slips by, a three and a half minute encapsulated landscape.

i miss ben. i miss michelle. missing michelle has become a favorite pastime of mine. it's a rather stupid one. im strangely ok with it anyway.

the same bitter songs make me happy, the same alcohol warms me from inside, the same trails echo my breaths.

four walls looking in
light looking down
give way

give way to these fields, these trees
this ocean, this dirt
the miracles

Everything does equal everything else. Whenever something bad happens, I'm trying to be patient and wait for life to reveal it as a blessing.

not isla vista, IV is ridiculous.

but tonight me and chelsea drove out to the hills and looked out over the bay. just like the countless nights spent on bishop peak looking over SLO.

it's true.

I'm trying to make some mix cd's, but feel like I'm just moving around the same old, recycled songs. It's like an analogy for my world right now, I'm trying to make sense of life using the same, old lines of reasoning and patterns of thinking. Nevermind, I think I've given up on shaping out any sort of life philosophy for my current state of ( Read more... )

you are compassion, i am overdramatic