I went out biking today because, both because I like riding my bike around and because I've been too injured to really run for a few weeks. It's actually depressing, I'm the kind of person that absolutely needs to get exercise almost every day, and it's hard to not be able to go run on the beach. I also took this as an opportunity to further ( Read more... )

I don't really smoke cigarettes but I did yesterday on the drive to Santa Barbara. Saturday night was terrible. And great too. The definition of bittersweet perhaps. I stayed at Michelles house after her party, which was a great party by the way, and woke up totally regretting it. And at his point it's not like we even sleep together, so the ( Read more... )

A few fleeting moments of life; before condensed into brilliant, radiant flashes, now stretched into panoramic vistas.

Where have those moments gone?

ran 15+ miles from isla vista to downtown with Elliot. Considering the shape i'm in i handled it well. running places is good.

I'm hanging out with campbell tonight, which will be sweet. old friends are good.

I had a much needed cathartic conversation with michelle thursday. life is ok.

i will wake up

18 months and counting
i keep sliding towards life,
or rather away from it

you could not even walk back inside to say goodbye. it's not a question. but how could you be like that? i guess i sat around hoping i could just hug you, or say a sentence or two, just touch for a second. how can you be like this?

I have been replaced. how could you have said all those things?

We are done. Things didn't start well, and by Sunday morning we were taking separate showers and I was trying to find all my shit that's spread around her room. Honestly, I'm not that sad. A little bitter and angry, yes, but not sad. So tonight I'm sitting around doing homework back in Isla Vista, and she's probably getting drunk with her ( Read more... )

i don't think i've ever had a real nervous breakdown. i've always been able to convince myself things are ok, no matter what. But last night I struggled with some sort of a realization. I'm approaching being a junior in college. I'm 19. I keep thinking back to when I was a sophomore in highschool and 15. On one hand I feel like I've changed ( Read more... )

So i'm sitting here waiting for my roommate to get out of the shower so I can use the bathroom, and making up some excuses to myself about how I shouldn't work on my chemistry homework because I don't have time or something before class at 1:00. Whatever. So i decided to post to livejournal instead. (Sweet, huh?) The past couple weeks have been ( Read more... )