Shades (NINETEEN)
Title: Shades
Pairing: KyuMin
Genre: Angst, Romance, Friendship, Dark, Smut, Yaoi, AU
Rating: R
Length: Chaptered
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and the plot. This is inspired by the novel 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
Warning: boy-to-boy relationships, language
Summary: Behind every beautiful face lie very dark secrets.
Previous Chapters:
Prologue 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18
CHAPTER NINETEEN - SUBMISSIVE
They stare at each other for what seemed like forever for Sungmin. He has a hopeful look on his face, while the other one seemed… troubled.
“No.” Kyuhyun firmly replies.
He just glared at the younger man. What was Kyuhyun thinking? He thought Kyuhyun wants him to be his submissive, and now that’s he is willingly offering himself to him, he is saying no?
“I don’t want you to be just my Submissive…”
What was the meaning of that? Does that mean that he wants them to be lovers?
“Oh, Sungmin-ah, just to warn you, once you enter Kyuhyun’s real world, prepare yourself for the physical, emotional, and psychological pain that you’ll go through. It will not be easy.” Heechul added before the psychiatrist took his leave.
“Kyuhyun, I want to be your Submissive…” If this is the only way he could help him, he’ll take the risk of suffering.
“Why?” Truth to be told, he isn’t still certain of what is his reason on agreeing. It is definitely not because of Heechul.
“Why not?”
“…I don’t want to hurt you.”
He gulps; this was the first thing both of them feared. He is well aware that Kyuhyun will inflict pain on him, but while in the process, he also knows that Kyuhyun will be hurting more.
He’s trying to change Kyuhyun. And he himself knew that changing from the things you have grown accustomed to is just one of the hardest things to do, that’s why he will take this slowly, just like what the psychiatrist told him.
“We’ll make amendments.”
He slightly chuckles as he watches Kyuhyun raise an eyebrow at the statement.
“Shall we go through the contract?”
However, Kyuhyun remains frozen on his seat. He controls the urge to roll his eyes.
“Kyu, the contract.”
Sighing, Kyuhyun pulls a folder out from a rack of folders and flips it open, but he is just staring at it, probably reading the scribbles. He notices that the brunet clenches his jaw.
“So, what are we going to change here?” Kyuhyun angrily asks.
A shiver runs down his spine after hearing how low and scary Kyuhyun’s voice is. Once their eyes meet, he realizes that the other’s eyes had turned darker, almost like it’s filled with lust and anger. Is he now seeing the Dominant side of Kyuhyun? Is this the Kyuhyun his past Submissives had witnessed? Will this be the Kyuhyun he will see once he signs the contract?
It is like Kyuhyun suddenly transformed.
“Sungmin.”
He flinches. The sweet way of calling his name is now replaced with a strong one. He looks at the younger, scared; however, Kyuhyun didn’t show a single hint of being affected by it. And now, he is having second thoughts, yet again.
His hands shaking due to fear, he reaches for the folder perched on the desk and scans the paper. The words written don’t register much in his mind for his thoughts are filled with scenes of his near future as Kyuhyun’s Submissive.
“Are you still going to change something?” Think, Sungmin, think!
“Sit.” Kyuhyun commands. The younger crosses his legs and then points at an empty chair behind him. He slowly pulls the chair to him, and moves slightly closer in front of Kyuhyun.
And then he tries recalling Heechul’s words to him.
“Be a tough Submissive… you obey him…”
“Y-Yeah. This obey everything the Dominant say part. I could reject you if I don’t want to have sex with you.”
“No. Discipline and obedience are the very points of that rule, and it is important here.”
He bit his lip. He should think of a retort.
“…but not all the time.”
“I’m already disciplined and obedient enough to know if what you’re telling me to do is right or wrong.”
“Believe me, Sungmin, you are not disciplined and obedient. If you are, you wouldn’t be here, entering something you would have never thought of entering,” Here he goes again. “Besides, can you deny the pleasure you’ll get from me?”
Now he’s speechless. No matter at what angle he will look at this one, he cannot deny the fact that what Kyuhyun said is actually true. Since he’ll be technically sacrificing his freedom, he should at least make the most of it by receiving pleasure in return. But that doesn’t mean he’s in the mood for horny stuff every time.
Knowing that Kyuhyun will forever argue with him about this, he moves on to the next steps.
“E-Exercise?” That’s one thing he really, really, really felt the need for a revision. He is already fit enough, in his opinion, and he is quite sure that he will maintain this kind of body, especially because of the first rule.
However, Kyuhyun remembered their deal before regarding this. “No. We already talked about this.”
A pout forms on his M-shaped lips, trying to see if it will work on the younger. Unfortunately, it didn’t. Kyuhyun looks scarier than his most terror professor back in the university.
“Rebel sometimes…”
“This being respectful and modest part. I don’t think I can act this way towards you since I’m older, so it will be awkward for me if I address you politely.”
He watched Kyuhyun massage his forehead with those slim fingers of his. He suddenly remembers how hot he felt whenever those fingers will touch his skin, or how it felt when those were moving inside him, giving him the pleasure that he desperately needed that time.
But now is not the time to think about it. Besides, he’s sure that they will do the real thing later.
“I don’t care. Some of my ex-submissives are older than me.”
“Annoy him until he surrenders and decides to give you everything you want…”
“But I would care~!” He shows Kyuhyun his ultimate aegyo again, matched with his forever irresistible baby voice.
“No.”
“Kyuhyun~!”
“…”
“Kyuhyunnie~!!!”
“Fine, fine. Next.” He mentally celebrates for Kyuhyun finally agreed to one of his conditions. If he knew this will happen, he should have just took Law so he could persuade Kyuhyun easily.
“Okay, this will be the last one. I should not be held accountable with my wrongdoings when I’m without you.”
At that, the frown on Kyuhyun’s forehead deepens, his eyes seemingly turning much darker. “What?”
He shrugs. Confidence is weirdly building up inside him after Kyuhyun agreed to one of his proposed amendments. Then again, he should still instill in his mind that he is talking to a genius, who is unfortunately excellent in making negotiations and creating strategies (blame Starcraft).
“I am not with you; therefore, I am not your responsibility. Just like in typhoons, when a particular typhoon or low pressure area is not within the country’s area of responsibility, any damage caused by the typhoon beyond the borderline is not the accountability of the country.”
He sometimes compares himself to different kinds of natural disasters since he believes that he’s naturally attracting disasters, natural or not. Trouble is everywhere near him.
“Fair point well made. Yes, it may be true that the country should not be held responsible for it, but the country should prepare for the highly inevitable entering of the typhoon, so that there will be lesser casualties once it does,” Kyuhyun leans closer to his face, making him slightly move his body back. The brunet whispers, “Discipline and obedience are made for a reason.”
He mentally cries. Why can’t he win in an important argument against Kyuhyun? He can sometimes outwit Donghae and his professors, but why not Kyuhyun? Damn it, he’s not a kid to be disciplined by someone, especially by a guy who is younger than him.
Goodbye, confidence. He is sure he should not annoy Kyuhyun this time.
“Since you said that was the last one, it is my turn to propose my amendment,” Kyuhyun says. He audibly gulps. Is Kyuhyun going to be harsher on him because he annoyed him? Was it because Kyuhyun wanted him to back out?
“I will give you the privilege to cut the agreement if you don’t like it anymore, any time you feel like doing it. I will not argue. I will not stop you.”
That one never crossed his mind. He was certain that he will undergo this in three months just like the other Submissives. He also didn’t think that Kyuhyun will allow him to do that, knowing how a torture-addict this guy is. Now he knows that Kyuhyun is really concerned of him.
Disregarding the serious situation going on, he kisses Kyuhyun, sitting on the brunet’s lap and wrapping his arms around the taller man’s neck. A soft moan escapes his lips as Kyuhyun hugs his waist tightly and deepens the kiss.
“But be understanding to him. Be patient. Let him change gradually. Do not surprise him the negative way. Be a hyung to him, not just a Submissive. Be a lover. Show him that sex is not everything. Show him that he needs love more than anything else. Believe in him. Trust him. Love him.”
He can do this. There is still hope for Kyuhyun to change. There is still a hope that their complicated relationship will be normal. There is still hope for the two of them.
They pulled away due to the need to breathe, both men are trying to catch their breaths and are staring at each other in the eyes. Lust, anxiety, fear, longing and love mixed. One cannot determine which is which.
“Is this a deal, Mr. Cho?”
It took a while before Kyuhyun replied.
“Yes, Mr. Lee.”
Once again, their lips meet in a searing kiss, their hands frantically touching different parts of each other’s body because of the need to feel more of the heat from the other. It is suffocating and it makes them crazy that touching the other could be the only sign that their sanity is still intact.
The kiss grows sloppy and desperate. Kyuhyun’s tongue invades his mouth, that pink muscle tasting every corner. Soon after, both their tongues mold on each other, neither of them giving in to let the other dominate.
Their fingers hurriedly unbutton their shirts while still not disconnecting their lips, discarding the clothes on the floor without care. Kyuhyun then latches his lips on his neck as his butt was groped by the younger before he was lifted.
Kyuhyun swats all stuff on the desk and quickly places him on it, with the taller spreading his legs widely before positioning himself in between. He bites his lower lip as he watches Kyuhyun fish something from the drawer. It is a microphone cable.
It was then shown to his face, a dangerous smirk forming on Kyuhyun’s lips. “Does this ring a bell to you?”
And that’s when he remembered. That was the microphone cable Kyuhyun bought at the Kim’s music store. He didn’t know that it has another function aside from being connected to a microphone and a speaker.
Just like on their first and second night, his hands are also pinned above his head now. If on the first night, Kyuhyun used a handcuff and a necktie on the second one, this time, Kyuhyun secures his wrists using the microphone cable.
“Why are you always tying my hands?” Why aren’t you allowing me to touch you?
“Because I want to. Only my rules will be followed when in bed. No revisions will be accepted, hyung.” The way Kyuhyun said ‘hyung’ is not the usual sweet and playful one, rather, it is dark and low, it is hypnotizing, just like his eyes.
Without waiting for his reply, Kyuhyun ducks down and takes a nipple in his mouth, making him gasp in surprise and arch his back. He badly wants to thread fingers on Kyuhyun’s hair. Up to now, he is still curious as to how it would feel on his hands. He would like to feel how soft it is, he would like to hold on it when it’s wet with sweat due to their love making, so as what he aims to do with Kyuhyun soon.
He hears the younger grunt, and then feels him pulling his pants. He visibly shivers as air kisses his lower body, especially his aching erection. He could feel Kyuhyun’s eyes roaming all over his body and it made him blush.
Soon, Kyuhyun was also free from any clothing. Kyuhyun holds his hips and pulls him down before flipping him over. He plops his elbows to support his upper body to peek on Kyuhyun, however, he buries his face on his arm when his legs were spread wider and felt Kyuhyun’s thick and long cock pushing in his entrance.
As Kyuhyun moves faster, his moans get louder, just like what Kyuhyun wants him to do. The slaps on his butt cheeks didn’t even matter to him for the pleasure he feels is overtaking his entire system. Plus, his ears went deaf when it comes to his moans, for he could only hear the heavy groans Kyuhyun lets out which meant that he likes this.
He likes the roughness, but he would want that to change someday. Someday, their intimate activities will not just be for fuck, but there would be more love between them and more cuddling at the aftermath.
He is not that sure of himself if he already loves Kyuhyun, or if it’s true that Kyuhyun loves him. All he knows is that he likes the guy enough for him to help Kyuhyun to be a normal person. He wants to know more about this mysterious man. He wants to touch him, to memorize the feeling of each skin of the younger.
He wants Kyuhyun to be free from whatever reason that made him like this because Kyuhyun deserves it.
As the both of them came, that’s when he realizes that there is no turning back.
TO BE CONTINUED
-Unbetaed
-I know the smut is rushed lol sorry for that. I'm saving my smut brain cells for one particular chapter ^_~
-Oh, guys, check this video my yeobo made for Shades! By the way, it's RATED. Not for kids kkk~
-Comments are loved <333
Pairing: KyuMin
Genre: Angst, Romance, Friendship, Dark, Smut, Yaoi, AU
Rating: R
Length: Chaptered
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and the plot. This is inspired by the novel 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
Warning: boy-to-boy relationships, language
Summary: Behind every beautiful face lie very dark secrets.
Previous Chapters:
Prologue 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18
CHAPTER NINETEEN - SUBMISSIVE
They stare at each other for what seemed like forever for Sungmin. He has a hopeful look on his face, while the other one seemed… troubled.
“No.” Kyuhyun firmly replies.
He just glared at the younger man. What was Kyuhyun thinking? He thought Kyuhyun wants him to be his submissive, and now that’s he is willingly offering himself to him, he is saying no?
“I don’t want you to be just my Submissive…”
What was the meaning of that? Does that mean that he wants them to be lovers?
“Oh, Sungmin-ah, just to warn you, once you enter Kyuhyun’s real world, prepare yourself for the physical, emotional, and psychological pain that you’ll go through. It will not be easy.” Heechul added before the psychiatrist took his leave.
“Kyuhyun, I want to be your Submissive…” If this is the only way he could help him, he’ll take the risk of suffering.
“Why?” Truth to be told, he isn’t still certain of what is his reason on agreeing. It is definitely not because of Heechul.
“Why not?”
“…I don’t want to hurt you.”
He gulps; this was the first thing both of them feared. He is well aware that Kyuhyun will inflict pain on him, but while in the process, he also knows that Kyuhyun will be hurting more.
He’s trying to change Kyuhyun. And he himself knew that changing from the things you have grown accustomed to is just one of the hardest things to do, that’s why he will take this slowly, just like what the psychiatrist told him.
“We’ll make amendments.”
He slightly chuckles as he watches Kyuhyun raise an eyebrow at the statement.
“Shall we go through the contract?”
However, Kyuhyun remains frozen on his seat. He controls the urge to roll his eyes.
“Kyu, the contract.”
Sighing, Kyuhyun pulls a folder out from a rack of folders and flips it open, but he is just staring at it, probably reading the scribbles. He notices that the brunet clenches his jaw.
“So, what are we going to change here?” Kyuhyun angrily asks.
A shiver runs down his spine after hearing how low and scary Kyuhyun’s voice is. Once their eyes meet, he realizes that the other’s eyes had turned darker, almost like it’s filled with lust and anger. Is he now seeing the Dominant side of Kyuhyun? Is this the Kyuhyun his past Submissives had witnessed? Will this be the Kyuhyun he will see once he signs the contract?
It is like Kyuhyun suddenly transformed.
“Sungmin.”
He flinches. The sweet way of calling his name is now replaced with a strong one. He looks at the younger, scared; however, Kyuhyun didn’t show a single hint of being affected by it. And now, he is having second thoughts, yet again.
His hands shaking due to fear, he reaches for the folder perched on the desk and scans the paper. The words written don’t register much in his mind for his thoughts are filled with scenes of his near future as Kyuhyun’s Submissive.
“Are you still going to change something?” Think, Sungmin, think!
“Sit.” Kyuhyun commands. The younger crosses his legs and then points at an empty chair behind him. He slowly pulls the chair to him, and moves slightly closer in front of Kyuhyun.
And then he tries recalling Heechul’s words to him.
“Be a tough Submissive… you obey him…”
“Y-Yeah. This obey everything the Dominant say part. I could reject you if I don’t want to have sex with you.”
“No. Discipline and obedience are the very points of that rule, and it is important here.”
He bit his lip. He should think of a retort.
“…but not all the time.”
“I’m already disciplined and obedient enough to know if what you’re telling me to do is right or wrong.”
“Believe me, Sungmin, you are not disciplined and obedient. If you are, you wouldn’t be here, entering something you would have never thought of entering,” Here he goes again. “Besides, can you deny the pleasure you’ll get from me?”
Now he’s speechless. No matter at what angle he will look at this one, he cannot deny the fact that what Kyuhyun said is actually true. Since he’ll be technically sacrificing his freedom, he should at least make the most of it by receiving pleasure in return. But that doesn’t mean he’s in the mood for horny stuff every time.
Knowing that Kyuhyun will forever argue with him about this, he moves on to the next steps.
“E-Exercise?” That’s one thing he really, really, really felt the need for a revision. He is already fit enough, in his opinion, and he is quite sure that he will maintain this kind of body, especially because of the first rule.
However, Kyuhyun remembered their deal before regarding this. “No. We already talked about this.”
A pout forms on his M-shaped lips, trying to see if it will work on the younger. Unfortunately, it didn’t. Kyuhyun looks scarier than his most terror professor back in the university.
“Rebel sometimes…”
“This being respectful and modest part. I don’t think I can act this way towards you since I’m older, so it will be awkward for me if I address you politely.”
He watched Kyuhyun massage his forehead with those slim fingers of his. He suddenly remembers how hot he felt whenever those fingers will touch his skin, or how it felt when those were moving inside him, giving him the pleasure that he desperately needed that time.
But now is not the time to think about it. Besides, he’s sure that they will do the real thing later.
“I don’t care. Some of my ex-submissives are older than me.”
“Annoy him until he surrenders and decides to give you everything you want…”
“But I would care~!” He shows Kyuhyun his ultimate aegyo again, matched with his forever irresistible baby voice.
“No.”
“Kyuhyun~!”
“…”
“Kyuhyunnie~!!!”
“Fine, fine. Next.” He mentally celebrates for Kyuhyun finally agreed to one of his conditions. If he knew this will happen, he should have just took Law so he could persuade Kyuhyun easily.
“Okay, this will be the last one. I should not be held accountable with my wrongdoings when I’m without you.”
At that, the frown on Kyuhyun’s forehead deepens, his eyes seemingly turning much darker. “What?”
He shrugs. Confidence is weirdly building up inside him after Kyuhyun agreed to one of his proposed amendments. Then again, he should still instill in his mind that he is talking to a genius, who is unfortunately excellent in making negotiations and creating strategies (blame Starcraft).
“I am not with you; therefore, I am not your responsibility. Just like in typhoons, when a particular typhoon or low pressure area is not within the country’s area of responsibility, any damage caused by the typhoon beyond the borderline is not the accountability of the country.”
He sometimes compares himself to different kinds of natural disasters since he believes that he’s naturally attracting disasters, natural or not. Trouble is everywhere near him.
“Fair point well made. Yes, it may be true that the country should not be held responsible for it, but the country should prepare for the highly inevitable entering of the typhoon, so that there will be lesser casualties once it does,” Kyuhyun leans closer to his face, making him slightly move his body back. The brunet whispers, “Discipline and obedience are made for a reason.”
He mentally cries. Why can’t he win in an important argument against Kyuhyun? He can sometimes outwit Donghae and his professors, but why not Kyuhyun? Damn it, he’s not a kid to be disciplined by someone, especially by a guy who is younger than him.
Goodbye, confidence. He is sure he should not annoy Kyuhyun this time.
“Since you said that was the last one, it is my turn to propose my amendment,” Kyuhyun says. He audibly gulps. Is Kyuhyun going to be harsher on him because he annoyed him? Was it because Kyuhyun wanted him to back out?
“I will give you the privilege to cut the agreement if you don’t like it anymore, any time you feel like doing it. I will not argue. I will not stop you.”
That one never crossed his mind. He was certain that he will undergo this in three months just like the other Submissives. He also didn’t think that Kyuhyun will allow him to do that, knowing how a torture-addict this guy is. Now he knows that Kyuhyun is really concerned of him.
Disregarding the serious situation going on, he kisses Kyuhyun, sitting on the brunet’s lap and wrapping his arms around the taller man’s neck. A soft moan escapes his lips as Kyuhyun hugs his waist tightly and deepens the kiss.
“But be understanding to him. Be patient. Let him change gradually. Do not surprise him the negative way. Be a hyung to him, not just a Submissive. Be a lover. Show him that sex is not everything. Show him that he needs love more than anything else. Believe in him. Trust him. Love him.”
He can do this. There is still hope for Kyuhyun to change. There is still a hope that their complicated relationship will be normal. There is still hope for the two of them.
They pulled away due to the need to breathe, both men are trying to catch their breaths and are staring at each other in the eyes. Lust, anxiety, fear, longing and love mixed. One cannot determine which is which.
“Is this a deal, Mr. Cho?”
It took a while before Kyuhyun replied.
“Yes, Mr. Lee.”
Once again, their lips meet in a searing kiss, their hands frantically touching different parts of each other’s body because of the need to feel more of the heat from the other. It is suffocating and it makes them crazy that touching the other could be the only sign that their sanity is still intact.
The kiss grows sloppy and desperate. Kyuhyun’s tongue invades his mouth, that pink muscle tasting every corner. Soon after, both their tongues mold on each other, neither of them giving in to let the other dominate.
Their fingers hurriedly unbutton their shirts while still not disconnecting their lips, discarding the clothes on the floor without care. Kyuhyun then latches his lips on his neck as his butt was groped by the younger before he was lifted.
Kyuhyun swats all stuff on the desk and quickly places him on it, with the taller spreading his legs widely before positioning himself in between. He bites his lower lip as he watches Kyuhyun fish something from the drawer. It is a microphone cable.
It was then shown to his face, a dangerous smirk forming on Kyuhyun’s lips. “Does this ring a bell to you?”
And that’s when he remembered. That was the microphone cable Kyuhyun bought at the Kim’s music store. He didn’t know that it has another function aside from being connected to a microphone and a speaker.
Just like on their first and second night, his hands are also pinned above his head now. If on the first night, Kyuhyun used a handcuff and a necktie on the second one, this time, Kyuhyun secures his wrists using the microphone cable.
“Why are you always tying my hands?” Why aren’t you allowing me to touch you?
“Because I want to. Only my rules will be followed when in bed. No revisions will be accepted, hyung.” The way Kyuhyun said ‘hyung’ is not the usual sweet and playful one, rather, it is dark and low, it is hypnotizing, just like his eyes.
Without waiting for his reply, Kyuhyun ducks down and takes a nipple in his mouth, making him gasp in surprise and arch his back. He badly wants to thread fingers on Kyuhyun’s hair. Up to now, he is still curious as to how it would feel on his hands. He would like to feel how soft it is, he would like to hold on it when it’s wet with sweat due to their love making, so as what he aims to do with Kyuhyun soon.
He hears the younger grunt, and then feels him pulling his pants. He visibly shivers as air kisses his lower body, especially his aching erection. He could feel Kyuhyun’s eyes roaming all over his body and it made him blush.
Soon, Kyuhyun was also free from any clothing. Kyuhyun holds his hips and pulls him down before flipping him over. He plops his elbows to support his upper body to peek on Kyuhyun, however, he buries his face on his arm when his legs were spread wider and felt Kyuhyun’s thick and long cock pushing in his entrance.
As Kyuhyun moves faster, his moans get louder, just like what Kyuhyun wants him to do. The slaps on his butt cheeks didn’t even matter to him for the pleasure he feels is overtaking his entire system. Plus, his ears went deaf when it comes to his moans, for he could only hear the heavy groans Kyuhyun lets out which meant that he likes this.
He likes the roughness, but he would want that to change someday. Someday, their intimate activities will not just be for fuck, but there would be more love between them and more cuddling at the aftermath.
He is not that sure of himself if he already loves Kyuhyun, or if it’s true that Kyuhyun loves him. All he knows is that he likes the guy enough for him to help Kyuhyun to be a normal person. He wants to know more about this mysterious man. He wants to touch him, to memorize the feeling of each skin of the younger.
He wants Kyuhyun to be free from whatever reason that made him like this because Kyuhyun deserves it.
As the both of them came, that’s when he realizes that there is no turning back.
TO BE CONTINUED
-Unbetaed
-I know the smut is rushed lol sorry for that. I'm saving my smut brain cells for one particular chapter ^_~
-Oh, guys, check this video my yeobo made for Shades! By the way, it's RATED. Not for kids kkk~
Click to view-Comments are loved <333