not sure why I'm updating once again; I've sworn off livejournal so many times, but always seem to come back like a bad habit. something about spilling thoughts as they come as opposed to the slow process of attempting to put them down on paper appeals to me..or my laziness..whatever. 50 comments on my last entry, however, does not; the catch is ( Read more... )

i realize more and more that I am woefully far from the kind of someone I'd want to marry - until I become that person, why even bother looking, when the results only prove unsatisfactory time and again? Still...

( I want someone who will hold my hand. )

I haven't posted here since I was a child..weird. Well, there is a lot to say but I was forced awake at a ridiculous hour for a Saturday morning..so I will just leave you with some ( pictures from the past few weeks )

babysitting the Stokes kids all day again tomorrow. Sam and Teddy are such cuties. I like kids, babysitting is what I've always done..but lately i've just been feeling kind of disconnected..like i'd rather be anywhere else. sometimes I'm so exhausted. Some days i love it. Watching the Krispin kids, Seth will cuddle up with me and we both get a nap ( Read more... )

Cattell's 16 Factor Test Results
Warmth |||||||||||||||||| 54% Intellect |||||||||||| 34% Emotional Stability ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Aggressiveness ||| 10% Liveliness ||||||||| 30% Dutifulness ||||||||||||||||||||| 66% Social Assertiveness ||||||||| 22% Sensitivity |||||||||||||||||||||||| 78% Paranoia ||||||||||||||| 50% ( Read more... )

Well the goat on the homepage is looking pretty screwed up.

picture entries seem to be the trend..

( New Years )

I need to talk more.

I'm still not feeling "Christmasy", as cliche as it all is..it should happen Christmas eve tomorrow..no, TODAY..when I'm up all night wrapping and creating things and everything that I don't think of til the last minute..it remains tradition, no matter how many times I reassure myself procrastination is NOT an option this year. I realized I don't ( Read more... )

The dreams have returned..this repeated nightmare has been the cause of so many sleepless nights. The struggle to wake myself up is the worst stage, trapped just beneath the surface of consciousness; it feels like drowning. Then to awaken, frozen in terror..it takes awhile just for my heart to slow down and breathing to get back to normal..let ( Read more... )

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haha.. I am stuck at CCBC, and the screwy computers wouldn't let me comment, so I decided to just post it here. So true..:)