I've been trying so hard to get away. Last night i cried to them again, again and again. I told them i'd go away for a while to Boston or New York, talk to Annie or Clare. They said it was the stronger thing to do to go back to school, good for me to get into the routine again. From the very beginning, everybody could tell I was upset. I've been ( Read more... )

I finally reached Baba. I must have worried her...she called at about 1am her time because she couldn't sleep because she was worried about our family. She wanted to talk to Mom, and since Laine was on the phone with Gabriela, she used my phone. Mom stood in the hallway talking as i waited for my phone, and she started to cry while she talked to ( Read more... )

hold me closer kiss my head ( Read more... )

i don't know what to say...

You think i'm going to forget you, and i'm not. I wouldn't do that.

My Jewish friend gave me a silver Christian cross neclace. what's more beautiful than religion ( Read more... )

i dont want to write about it because ITS A RUMOUR.

i feel so sick.

It's like i was sitting down, so comfortably expecting a chair to fall on, and someone grabbed it out from under me, and though i fell on the floor, it's the best thing that ever happened to me, but it still hurts that the chair's not there. I'm still getting used to this new way...less eventfull, in a way. Less drama, less of that dreading feeling ( Read more... )

i hate mixed messages...i hate this feeling ( Read more... )

i've never imagined a sadder picture. i love you so much.

I just re-arranged my bed...such a major accomplishment. My goals for tomorrow morning; a clean room, homework finished, all of my garbage out ( Read more... )