It's 3 am and I can't sleep. And I have no one to talk to really. I mean I had a good day yesterday. An interesting day. But still at the end of the day I still feel disconnected from those I usually feel closest too. It's really weird. I mean it happenes sometimes but never really lasts for over a few hours, but it's been days this time. Strangest ( Read more... )

Do you ever just get the urge to push people out of your life? I don't mean people that have wronged you either. I'm talking about people that you love. For some strange reason I'm always doing that. It makes no real logical sense, I know. But sometimes I just think that my life would be easier if certain people weren't in it. And it kind of hurts ( Read more... )

Woah. I really should update this thing more often. Even though no one reads it. Haha but still, whenever I do get around to updating it, there is way too much to tell about in one sitting ( Read more... )

Ok, so alot of things have happened since the last entry. Mostly more High School Bullshit Drama but I guess some other stuff has happened too. Nothing really good though. My evil 2nd block teacher isn't going to be back next year ... haha ... Wonder why? <<< Well I guess that is good. Hah. But all the rest is just a bunch of drama and depressing ( Read more... )

Damnnn!! You find out who your real friends are real quick when BS dram comes along, don't ya? Everyone's always running off at the mouth. And then out of nowhere you get told that one of your really good friends is talking shit about you to another good friend. Like a big ol punch in the gut. But wait, it doesn't end there. Then you find out that ( Read more... )

So Spring Break is almost over. The first little part of it was booming. Like It was one big party. Not real sure if that's a good thing. Probably isn't. But anyways I had alot of stuff on my mind so I just tried to party it off. But needless to say it didn't work. So I decided to just chill for the rest of Spring Break. And what do you know!! It ( Read more... )

Unexplainable smile. Loss for words. Happiness is what it is. I think. I've got it bad. Period. Plain and simple you know? This ride has to stop eventually. I know that. And more than likely it will crash to a stop. But damn it man am I going to enjoy the hell out of the ride until then. Yeah ... I got it bad.

Ever notice how one little thing can turn your world completly upside down? I have. And God does it fucking suck. Like drinking. Drinking is a funny thing. It seems harmless if it's used right, but damn can it be life altering!! Ever notice how people can turn your life around? I have. And God does it fucking suck. Yet ... God isn't it fucking ( Read more... )

I had went on a little drug/alcohol/razor binge a little while before my 18th birthday. Before that, I had been sober for a little over 4 months or so. I'm not real sure what pushed me into that binge, but something did I guess. But anyways I had been drunk all day the day before my birthday. And that night I had planned on getting even more drunk ( Read more... )

The other night I was laying in bed thinking about stuff. That's generally what I do in bed because I don't sleep all that well. But anyways I just randomly and suddenly realized something. Every man I've ever been close to has fucked me over. Now I mean I've known that all these people have fucked me over but I never realized that ALL of the men ( Read more... )