So yeah, it's been a good long while and alot of shit has happened. I mean I went on a week long drinking binge stuff ... so much for sobriety. But on a brighter side Jake spent a few nights over here last week and that was really kool. But really I guess it's bittersweet. The whole situation is really ( Read more... )

So yeah. It's Saturday and I'm bored so I'll update. Not much has happened really. It's just been kind of mellow. Well actually, that damn counselor is getting on my nerves. Always on my case. But I guess I should be grateful, she could get me in trouble for alot of things but doesn't. But she still gets on my nerves ( Read more... )

Wow. That's how I'm feeling right now. Pretty much 24 hours ago I was completely miserable and now I'm about as close to "happiness" as I ever get. I was just completely bummed out because my buddy was mad at me and i didn't know why and there was nothing I could do about it. And it had been bothering me for a few days but it just started to really ( Read more... )

I would have updated this yesterday but I went to bed at like 8 so I didn't really have time. But yeah, yesterday was a pretty eventful day. I mean 1st went by pretty quickly and all that, but of course 2nd didn't Since somebody is still angry at me. But like halfway through it, I get called up to the guidance office. I went up there and to my ( Read more... )

The day before yesterday I made a decision. I made a decision to seclude myself from people. Mostly from the people who I love. That might not be that many people, but it's still a few. Anyways I know it sounds stupid, but i think it will help things work out better in the end. Anyways ( Read more... )

2005 went by so quickly yet it dragged on slowly. Hard to believe that May will be here in no time. There are so many things that are needed to be taken care of and time is just flying by. But anyways, enough of that ( Read more... )

Once again it has been a while since I last updated this thing. And I have nothing to do at the moment so what the hell ( Read more... )

Wow ... I've been having a rough time lately. The last time I posted ... was the night things started to get bad. I guess I just got set off ... for whatever reason. But yeah ... I guess I just snapped that night and tried to do something bad ... but I guess God didn't like the idea too much. Anyways things have been downward from there. I tried to ( Read more... )

Have you ever felt like you there is nothing that you have control over?? And then you find something that you can control but then other people don't find it socially accpetable and don't approve, so you then stop the action and you see the fact that you are making the choice to stop means you have control over that. But then that gets yanked away ( Read more... )

Today was just a horrible day in many ways. I think I managed to snap on pretty much everyone, or at least say something completely mean and rude to them. Probably started when I was telling a story about writing my old teacher an email that said "Dear Mrs. B, I hate you. Because you left NHS and now I am stuck with the witch from hell English ( Read more... )