New Year, New Me.

My new journal.  It's time for a change :).

I hate the fact that I feel so lonely. I hate the fact that I feel like people are just nice to me because they don't want to hurt my feelings. I hate the fact that boys say they want a nice girl, but they go after the sluts. I hate the fact that all this bothers me, because I should be strong enough and confident enough that I shouldn't care. ( Read more... )

So remember in middle and sometimes high school when you'd have a crush on a teacher? Well, dammit, I've decided I'm in love with my Psychology of Gender teacher. He is just so frickin adorable. Not necessarily adorable as in HOT, but he just...is. Haha, I'm such a nerd. When the semester first started, I just knew he was gay, because I mean, ( Read more... )

That's what today was. Nothing about it in particular was bad, it just wasn't amazing. The whole day I have felt extremely tired and worn down, but I don't really know why because I've been getting enough sleep, and I'm not exactly working myself to death. It's weird. I've taken two naps today, and right now all I want to do is go back to sleep ( Read more... )

Well it was an interesting weekend. Friday night I saw Harry Potter, and it was really good. It didn't really fulfill my expectations, but I don't think it ever really could have unless it was about 10 hours long, because they just had to leave too much out. Oh well. Saturday, of course, was our biggest football game of the year, and we pretty ( Read more... )

So I took a Benadryl before I went to my public speaking class today, because I had to give a speech, and Benadryl is supposed to help symptoms of nervousness (sweating, shaking, dry mouth, etc.). Anyway, so my speech went pretty well, better than I thought it would, considering I wrote some of it last night and the rest this morning. I wasn't ( Read more... )

I'm so sick of this monotony. Wake up, go to class, come home, sit around, go to bed, repeat. I need something, ANYTHING to make my life more interesting. It sucks that everyday when I come home, all I want to do is sleep, because that's all there is to do. Today was such a nice day, it was pretty cold so I got to wear my cute winter clothes, ( Read more... )

Because there, my dreams are better. There, my dreams are more real, they're the ones I remember most. Today I slept on the couch and had a dream, and everything was okay. I was happy again, and it was so nice. Then I awoke and realized, of course, that it was a dream. I don't know what it is about sleeping there that makes dream so real, so ( Read more... )

So I know you guys are sick of my whining all the time, but lately it doesn't really seem like I have much else to talk about. I'm just so down. Sure I put on a good face for everyone...I don't want them to see me weak. But all that acting really takes a toll on my emotions, and by the end of the day, I end up feeling even worse. I really just ( Read more... )

sorry guys...I'm just bored ( Read more... )