I think by this time next year I want to be sipping a Guinness while visiting Ireland and Scotland. That sounds like a good goal to me. It's been many years since I took a proper vacation. Time to get started and save!!!

This is a day of ceremony, which means also a day of reflection. Just me and my thoughts. Certain memories flash out as if from a great distance, instances in time trapped like an insect in amber, crystal and preserved in all their glory. Some of them are painful to reflect upon. Even the wonderful memories are tinged with a sort of sad nostalgia. ( Read more... )

I spent a good portion of today taking stock of where I was last year at this time versus this where I am now. It also helped that I was doing a bit of research into light rays and their properties with reflective surfaces. It made me think about reflections, how the folks around us become mirrors of ourselves and we become mirrors of them. And ( Read more... )

It's a weird and fine line by being what is expected versus what you want to be. It's odd. Before this year I don't think that I ever really would have lived life by being what folks expect me to be or being influenced by who their ideas of who Tim is. It's not that anyone has ever really said that I should be this or that in anyway. However, I do ( Read more... )

....I think I'm freaking about nothing more than being overly tired....and also slightly embarrassed as well. See? I should've gotten a grip before posting that.

Okay folks. My loved one's have told me many times that I don't talk about the very serious stuff. While it is true that I have bitched and whined about my insomnia, weird emotional stuff, and the like, my friends want to be there when they can. Before this past year, I haven't really asked for support very much. And so, if there is anything that I ( Read more... )

For the past week or so, and at random times, I've been smelling gasoline. Everything will be roses and than whammo, the strong smell of gasoline. Since Sunday evening, I've had a constant headache. On early Monday morning, it hurt so bad that I started throwing up. It hasn't been that bad for the rest of the week...at least until about a half hour ( Read more... )

Bad back, sore feet and ankles, have been getting sick easily, stromach problems and now this headache. Seriously, I never uysed to whine about pain before and now it seems to be somethikng every day. Man, this sucks.

I hate getting old.

Went to work, had a blast. Fell asleep a few hours later. Woke up with an intense migraine...I mean really bad ( Read more... )

I took a real long walk tonight. My ankle is killing me as I knew it would and I’ll probably pay for it in a big way tomorrow. But I had to get out of the house for a bit. So I grabbed my cane and steeled myself for the long walk ahead. I knew I would be going for awhile tonight. I had some thing son my mind ( Read more... )