i need so badly to express myself
but i don't have the will to write

SO ( Read more... )

I'll still be homeless on christmas ( Read more... )

I'm scarred
because right now
I am sad
And i wish Alex was here to hold me
because that always makes me feel better
and i can take comfort in knowing that he will be holding me again tomorrow
but soon

there isn't going to be a tomorrow...

so i totally think that alex's mom thinks i'm ugly ( Read more... )

So sensei is so stressed he forgot all about what sam did. yay ( Read more... )

So, for some reason Sensei thinks sam is a better instructor than me. Maybe its because he is a better fighter, and has better kata. Maybe its because he only teaches grappling and hasn't worked kata in like a month. Maybe its because he does the same thing in class everyday. Maybe its because Sam thinks the whole point of teaching kids is to ( Read more... )

she could be lying dead on the floor of my living room
and i don't even have the guts to call her
i don't know what that means

she changed the locks
and closed all the blinds
her cars are there
there are no lights on
not even the tv is on
thats unbelievable
she always has the tv on
my dad talked to her this morning
and she was balistic

you know what my dad said?
"You don't think she offed herself do you? I think she's too chicken"

fuck

I love Paul and Christy! They are having me over for dinner cause Paul found out about my current living situation. Christy was like hugging me and was all "just take it easy, we'll always support you!" they are so sweet ( Read more... )