i am so nervous about the wedding on saturday and it's not even mine. i think i've almost 100% decided to stop shooting weddings. i am way too stressed out. i'm sure everything will be fine, but for the past month, ok the past year, ever since i've know i had to shoot this wedding i've been stressed out. i am terrible in situations where i don' ( Read more... )

i am moving to alaska or siberia or the north pole where i can become santa's helper. all i know is i should not be living in jersey. i am so horribly and painfully burned right now i'm having trouble walking. how in the world i'm going to put clothes on and go to work and school i'll never know. ouch ouch ouch ouch...i just thought about jeans ( Read more... )

i don't know if anyone's seen the movie "garden state", but if you haven't, then you better run to the theaters. it is possibly the best movie i've ever seen. it gives you realism without slapping you in the face and gives you hope that the perfect person is out there for you. this is the first movie i have ever seen that i don't have one ( Read more... )

i hate being made to feel guilty for not wanting to do something. i know most of the guilt i'm feeling is more of my own doing but still, i felt like the implications of "you should feel bad" were there. now i'm just more miserable than before. i just don't want to do anything today. actually i'm at the point where i don't want to really do ( Read more... )

the last hour and fifteen minutes were the busiest i have seen this place in months. of course it was also the first time in months where i've worked by myself. i was ambushed at the door 15 minutes before we were opened. my appointment shows up and i need to do a first workout as well as sign her up. then i have two weigh ins for diet class. i ( Read more... )

i'm a loser. i just ordered happy endings by dogstar. and yes, the only reason why i ordered it was because keanu reeves is in it. so sue me ( Read more... )

ok, sarah, when are we going on vacation? i'm ready to pull what rigas did...just say fuck it to all my bills and responsibility and just move somewhere and not worry about anything. can we do that? can we move to scotland or paris or italy? i am so convinced that my life involves something that's not in new jersey. i'm ready to find out if ( Read more... )

i need a vacation and thank god it's finally time for one. a mini-vacation, but time away from my family, work, and the craziness that my life has been for the past few weeks ( Read more... )

i realized today why i hated the summer so much. it didn't have so much to do with the humidity (although i hate that too) as it did with the light. it should not be light at 6am. it should be pitch black. therefore, if i don't have to be awake until 7:15am then the sun shouldn't be annoyingly poking itself into my eyes before the alarm clock ( Read more... )

so. i've got this itchy feeling again. like i'm waiting for something to happen. i feel vaguely unsettled and jumpy and constantly on edge. i'm at a turning point. a turning point to what i don't know, but i just have a feeling my life is about to change somehow. i hope it's for the better, but with my luck i have my doubts ( Read more... )