Why in the hell am I even doing this? I know why, i'm drunk so who cares. I've met so many new people this week it's not even funny. Best part is I got them all over to my house tonight, we had a fucking bash. It was so much fun. I have to be honest though and say I did catch myself looking to see if Jessie was here tonight. It's different having ( Read more... )

This will probably be my last journal entry for a LONG LONG time. I've decided that I should probably go into exile for a while and let certain actions just take their course. I've managed to fuck up something that was very important to me. I pushed away the one person who I wanted to be closest to. I guess I was supposed to try and fix it but to ( Read more... )

So today was rather interesting. I finally saw Jessie for the first time since she's been on her Mid-Winter break, only to find out that she basically hates me now and no longer feels that time we spend together is time enjoyed, rather time she has to put up with me. Of course it's my fault because of things I say and suggest, even if i'm joking ( Read more... )

Your mission, if you choose to accept it, is to assist in finding Mister Nagy a new girlfriend ( Read more... )

I don't feel good, my shoulder hurts, your mad at me (AGAIN), and all I want to do is see you. Nothing is ever right anymore, it's always the same bullshit day in and day out. I can't ever win with you. You'll want to talk to me tomorrow to see what's bothering me, but what you don't understand is that I need to talk to you about things when they ( Read more... )

I have a lot to say but i'm not exactly prepared to say it yet. Part of it is that I don't know how I want to say it yet, and the other being I want to talk to a few people first. A few things I can say or rather questions I can pose is; how am I supposed to think that a person that demonstrates a certain pattern of behavior with certain traits of ( Read more... )

I will spend tonight with Jessica. Tonight is the night that may change the course of a few lives. After learning what I have over the last 48 hours and hearing what i've heard over the last 24, i'm unsure about the course of action I want and/or need to take. I thought that we had come to some sort of close last night, but i've had a lot of alone ( Read more... )

Sigh......feeling rejected has to be one of the worst feelings i've had in a while. To lay everything out all on one hand only to lose is devastating. Such is the reality of the situation though. I took a chance to get back what I want and I got rejected. I can't hide from that anymore. You cannot go through life living in a fantasy land thinking ( Read more... )

Well I never knew how lonely a bed could be at night until you kind of expect someone to be in ther with you and their not. As warm and comforting as a bed can be I find that a bed has another cold, dark, and distant feeling to it. All in all the night wasn't too bad, but of course I fought with Jessie AGAIN. I'm fucking tired of this shit and i've ( Read more... )

Well I had full intentions of compiling all my thoughts and ideas and writing them in here for the viewing pleasure of everyone who seems to enjoy what I write and is riveted to every word I say (Adri), however their comes a point to everyone where they ask themselves "why"? Countless months i've tried and tried and tried to do everything I can, ( Read more... )