i just saw gangs in new york. one of the best movies i've seen in a long time. some of the violent parts were hard for me to watch but it's stuck in my mind. i've been kinda numb lately. numb in what could be a good way though. when i'm at work, i keep my mind on work and when i'm at home, my mind is on brandon, if he's not home, my mind is on ( Read more... )

i'm fine when i'm home, when i'm with my friend, the one that i trust. as soon as i leave his side the bitterness takes over, a warm rush of blood to my face, a deepened scowl i glare at the rest of them. the drama, the obliviousness, the whining, the ignorance, the selfishness, superficial materialistic sheep. they act different around different ( Read more... )

the light snow that's falling right now looks so pretty in the 730 light it's hard to look away, like if i don't memerize it, i might never nee anything that beautiful again. the sun will never again be that exact foggy yellow in that exact spot behind the tree with snowflakes just that big falling just that slowly ( Read more... )

a picture to fit my mood better ( Read more... )

i wonder if i can hold on to this calmness when i'm at work today ( Read more... )

i'm in a dark, cold place ( Read more... )

i've been thinking lately about the ideas of my favorite writer khan ( Read more... )

so i finally went to see a doctor. i don't know how to thank the one that took me. i'm bad at that. maybe i'll send her flowers if i can get her address ( Read more... )

what do you do when you're not paranoid, you are right, you mean nothing, you just are not good enough ( Read more... )

how these simple people walk blindly into this elaborate woven web i will never understand ( Read more... )