i tried to post a picture of my brandon with the poem, but i couldn't get it to work. i don't know what the hell i'm doing on this damn computer. ah well ( Read more... )

the beauty inside you glows through your skin ( Read more... )

last night i slept with a soft warm butterfly wing hugging me on one side, i had no idea how sweet it could be.

i just realized that my in-laws have quite an elaborate web site that has a bunch of photos from my wedding on it. if you get so bored you almost want to die, it's at lordclan.com. i'm in a bit of a daze anymore, at first i thought it may be from repeatition, but i'm comfortable where i'm at. i don't know, i feel foggy lately, a big awful ugly ( Read more... )

i'd rather be feared than loved ( Read more... )

christmas is over and the craft store is quiet. i've kept myself out of the dark hole in my mind for a couple weeks now. it feels good to be o.k. my sugar bu does not hate me or so it seems. i can't help but be paranoid, especially with the agent still around and my unstable nature. even though i've been mostly in control, i can feel the clouds ( Read more... )

i just figured out how to put pictures on here. this is my marley. cats are good pets for people with serious social problems that like typing. i quess internet journals are good for that too. only i know people who do it to create this phony, dolled-up, celebrity version of themselves. i don't think i'll do that. i'm only on here cause i have ( Read more... )

i lost my best friend. the sad part of it is that i realized that our friendship didn't matter to her like it did to me. and it did to me. it really did. the closeness we had seemed to have was a big part of me. i was mever able to open up to someone like i did to her. it helped me blossom as a person and become more comfortable with myself. then ( Read more... )