THE ULTIMATE SILENCE
October 12, 1998


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Yeah, I'm bored so I decided to write in this. I broke up with Carl because he was treating me like shit and controlling me. I'm back with Robert, we were together before Carl and I got together. We have a lot more in common and the relationship is a lot better. I'm not controlled and I don't get called a whore. I can be my own person and I can be ( Read more... )

You Are Absinthe!

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The issues in my head are driving me nuts. Things are going downhill with Carl. All we've been doing is fighting lately. Someone just make all my pain go away. I'm begging you. I can't even talk to Carl without him getting mad at me if it's not about him. Someone help me, please. I'm begging you.

I'm so confused about my emotions. I know I love Carl and I know I want to be with him. All we do is fight. I don't know whether I should be alone and figure things out till he gets here or stay with him and try to work through it. I'm so confused. Everytime I try to leave, he makes me feel guilty and talks about killing himself. I hate this. Why ( Read more... )

Coughing, wheezing ( Read more... )

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Blah Blah Blah. Yadda Yadda Yadda. Waah Waah Waah. Yakidy Yakidy Yak ( Read more... )

I'm sitting in school missing Carl. He's in baltimore until Sunday night. Luckily today I'm hanging out with Russ :), I haven't seen him in over a week, not cool. Got invited to a party tonight but I don't think I'm going to end up going, I have a family party to go to in the morning. I don't really have much more to say I don't think...hmmmm. Just ( Read more... )

Next time you people decide to call me, don't. Get fucking lives and stay the fuck out of mine. Really mature with the whole pimple thing, i thought it was so adorable. Really I did. But it's not adorable how a fucking 19 year old girl is having everyone else fight her fucking battles for her. Wow...how the hell does she think she's going to get ( Read more... )