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It's finally happening
At some point in the future I will probably write down a lengthy heartfelt explanation of how I got where I am now versus where I was two years ago. How I lost all the friends I mistakenly thought of as family. I'm not going to do that yet. This little exclamation is largely for me, and I know what happened. I'll probably always know, so I don't ( Read more... ) -
Yes, I am polyamorous. Here's what that *doesn't* mean...
For a long time I had some serious trepidations about returning poly, and then some more for coming out as poly once I went for it. There are some very specific things being polyamorous means to me, and some very specific things that it does not mean. One of the fears I've had was the idea of "vulturing" by people who might think that I'm ( Read more... ) -
More Mining Madness
Thursday I got a nice surprise by getting to work on high voltage wiring. It was thoroughly not live at the time, so it was really just playing with big wires, but I got to see how the electricians work safely, and I got to do some work I didn't think I would get the chance to do ( Read more... ) -
A Rough Time
D and I have been fighting way more than ever before. I discovered last night that I really have no business opening my mouth when i'm upset because almost anything I do makes it worse on me, and I take it out on others. I do not want to be an abusive person. Somehow, I need to get a handle on my behavior when i'm upset so I can at least get myself ( Read more... ) -
Saying What Needs To Be Said
That title probably makes it sound like I'm gonna do a good vague post saying something I "need to say". Sorry to be disappointing. This is just a musing about something I've discovered about myself of late ( Read more... ) -
What a Day
D didn't show up for tech day, which made me super anxious and upset. Especially because he was vague and not communicative about the reasons, so I had to sort of fight my way through tech day in order to get anything done. Once I was out, I ended up having some good conversations with Kassidy, and spent some considerable time talking to Jo at her ( Read more... ) -
Strength and Vulnerability Can Exist in the Same Moment
I've taken pride for a long time in the fact that I'm a middle-path type of person in most regards. Sometimes this can be a pain, or difficult but generally it seems to make the most sense to me ( Read more... ) -
King Arthur is (almost) better at poly than you
There's this great moment at the end of Camelot Act 1 where King Arthur goes through more polyamorous growth and change in about a page of monologue than most of us do in years and years.
Here is the text of the monologue, but if you want to watch a guy deliver it with good vocal delivery, and poor physical delivery I will also include a video.
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Mining and Mortality
This Monday, someone from my group of workers died at my mine site. He wasn't injured. There was no foul play. He just showed up to work as normal, but his clock had run out, and his partner in the field was left to cope with the aftermath ( Read more... ) -
Polyamory, "Ghosting", Compassion and Friendship: One of these things is not like the other
Lately I'm coming to realize what an early adopter I was at the notion of public polyamory. While I made mistake after mistake trying to figure out how to be ethical and romantically involved with more than one person at a time, I was doing it before the term existed in the public lexicon. Now that the notion is picking up some much needed cultural ( Read more... )