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I just read through some journal entries that have occured in the past few days. I also read some comments that were made...it's amazing how mean I can actually be. I almost felt bad for saying such harsh things to Nikki, until today at school when she wouldn't fight me but just sat there and talked shit...fucking people. I just don't understand ( Read more... )

So Amanda and Amanda are sitting here behind me in the library crying about the fact that they're not in my journal. Well I guess Beaver kept her mouth shut but Amanda H. talks for her all the time so it's both their fault now. So anyways...they're these two amazing girls that I love to death and they wanted the whole world to know it. So.....I ( Read more... )

Last night Chelsea called and we talked for quite a long time. I miss those kinds of conversations. The last few months, either I'm at work or she's sleeping...theres always a reason we don't have a good conversation. But last night...she reminded me of all the reasons I'm absolutely inlove with her. She's so amazing and caring. She knows just ( Read more... )

I'm so damn confused with my own life. I don't know who I am or what I want in life or even how to take care of myself. I've been so stressed and about nothing but everything at the same time. It makes no sense at all. Theres something that I want to tell Chelsea but if I do, I think I'll lose her and I'm not ready to take that risk. I need ( Read more... )

I HATE THE SCHOOL COMPUTERS!

I've been trying to get rid of a fucking "leach" for about two weeks now. Ever since she started being my friend she's creeped me out and I haven't really liked her. She came from a school about two weeks ago and got attached as soon as I talked to her for the first time. I've tried telling her I didn't think we should be friends...I tried ( Read more... )

I'm sick...it almost makes me feel good though. I got my cold from Chelsea, it makes me feel close to her. She tried warning me that I would get sick...I knew I would and so did she...neither of us cared enough to not kiss each other and be close though. Chris lost his wallet. He's kind of mine and Chelsea's chauffeur. He doesn't have his ( Read more... )

I'm in Washington....my real home. I guess it's only my "real home" because Chelsea's here. When I'm with her, I don't understand how I could have ever cut myself or cheated on her or even been mad at her. But when I'm back in Oregon, at school, at work, in my real life, I understand completely. I make the mistakes that I make because all I ( Read more... )

"It's like the hole in the wall from the nail where you hung your best piece ( Read more... )