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sometimes I just want to run away. then I think about it and I realize I don't want to run away, I just want to kick his ass out of my fucking house because all he does is sleep. he doesn't help me do anything he is suppose to.our anything I ask him to help me with even though he says he will. I'm getting sick of this shit. it's the same shit over ( Read more... ) -
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She runs to the woods. For sanctuary I assume. I think she's going to her special place. She has not retreated there in a long while... But I believe when she comes back she will be all right. She will be Titanium again. Not a statue. Not so frigid as she has been. But herself. I'm afraid she will become a God again. I will open his eyes if she ( Read more... ) -
New alcoholic in town
I can't do this. Emotions are to hard. I never get to see Tom any more. He has to work tonight and tomorrow too. I don't know why he couldn't have said no to tomorrow.I made sure I had tomorrow off so we could spend the day together. But he couldn't say no? I'm not sure if I can feel like I'm going to cry all the time because of him. I literally ( Read more... ) -
the flow
He doesn't understand the flow of the world. I've heard about his history. I've taken the classes and he learns nothing from himself. Who does that? Oh right idiots. He's so smart though? Lies all of it. Once you snap he will be powerless,but you wouldn't do that would you? One of you has to be in control of yourself. But maybe we'll make him snap ( Read more... ) -
Move
And the system moves on. more pour in today. more leave. like nothing happened. hello. good bye. time speeds up. time slows down. this is peaceful. peace doesn't last forever though. not for us. not for anyone. even in the real world. does a nightmare call peace a dream? or is the dream to have peace forever? I'm not sure. the nightmares are ( Read more... ) -
Braxton X. Vateri
Do I see a deletion of some writing? what's this about? honesty is the best policy and I think you were just being honest. you should be too.it is your life...not just his. He's rude isn't he?.I sometimes think how can he and Ethan get along then I watched him closely. He can't even see me. blindly walking around. people are silly
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there's a demon inside of me.
I'm a Vateri.
When I was younger I didn't know what that meant. Now that I'm older I know what it means.I'm a time bomb.My time is ticking and I can feel it.It's like the Master from Doctor Who. I can hear the drums in my head. But it's the voices of Vateris past. I can hear what they thought before the end.especially him. Z. Skylar says that he ( Read more... ) -
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Its funny. I'm depressed I think. I won't eat unless someone is watching me. Again. I feel like I want to vomit. I can't get into a nice wedding dress let alone my regular jeans. I'm fat and I can't stand it. I can't stand to look at myself. I'm literally 100lbs heavier than I was freshman year. I can't do this whole being sick thing. I can't, I ( Read more... ) -
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Too tired to keep going. Is almost all I can hear myself say, but under that there is a whisper. a shadow of who I was. a piece that I can almost reach. I will be great again. I will be great again. I am the circle and the circle is me. I will be great. for him. for them. for my mother. for me. for you. for the child I lost on Saturday. but most of ( Read more... ) -
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the rhythm is back and I see how I did once before. this life is the one I wanted I dream of my day the night before I have it. strange but not exactly the whole day just parts. its the new medication I suppose. makes me sick and dizzy, but it is suppose to help. my friends lives are disgusting to me. and I've never noticed, but I still Care about ( Read more... )