i mourned the death of something that was never alive tonight. i wept and wailed for an ending that was never begun. i ripped apart the bindings of a book that was never written.  i exhaled the hot breath of a fire that had never been kindled.
and i will always, always want for something i will never have.

this weekend was really really good. and i needed it ( Read more... )

i was driving home from the fabric store today and i saw a car with two bumper stickers...on the left was friends don't let friends eat meat and on the right my brother is in the army. obviously the idea of watching someone you love consume a little protein is much more offensive than letting them run off to iraq to shoot at people ( Read more... )

tonight i finally moved my organ over by my computer desk so i can record it with audition and audacity (i.e. no brainer programs). so of course i now have 9380593832874 million little waves of really stupid shit on my desktop. i need to find an instrument repair shop that will fix the short in my top keyboard for cheap...'cause taking the back ( Read more... )

i've had this horrible headache for about an hour and a half now and it just doesn't seem to want to leave my body. my eyes have been really light sensitive for the past five or six years and if i spend too much time in a brightly lit room i inevitably get one of these brain-bangers. derek could tell i was hurting pretty bad so he gave me one of ( Read more... )

so it's friday morning and i've been at work for a few hours. i get done with a customer and glance over at my phone...new voicemail. it's derek saying "uhhhhhh i'm at ku med...i got hit by a car last night. i don't feel that bad but i have staples in my head and some bleeding on the brain....i'm still in the emergency room so i'll call you later ( Read more... )

derek got hit by a car

today before i left for work, i made the mistake of glancing up at my always-on bedroom television and fuck it all if highlander wasn't on...HIGHLANDER. so i bet you can guess who was a good ten minutes late to her job today. yeah...i know...lame huh? but they're playing lulu's to sir with love in the mall right now, so that makes me feel a little ( Read more... )

today was totally exhausting. i didn't get to sleep until around 3 and then was back up at 6:30, so of course work was a total madhouse most of the time, though i won't be complaining about it when i get the commission check for this month. went to my friend seagren's when i got off, caught up on what's going on with everyone....discussed my ( Read more... )

i really thought it was going to be a depressing valentine's day, watching all the other kiosk-ers getting their flowers and balloons...but nope!!!

this...

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