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I wanted to write something worth reading but all I have to say are negative things about myself. So I'll just sum it up in one sentence so you don't have to read my crazy thoughts for too long... Dear Jill, you're ugly, fat, and lazy. And so on and so on.... -
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Can't do it.
Going to start seeing a new therapist again. Something about starting all over makes me cringe. Cringe: to shrink, bend, or crouch, especially in fear or servility; cower ( Read more... ) -
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I sleep so much. Am I really that depressed? For some reason I thought I was doing better. I guess that was really only for a few days a couple weeks ago. I missed my psychiatrist appointment today, literally just remembered. I must be too good at life that I just don't need doctors... sarcasm... obviously. Its not like I want to kill myself ( Read more... ) -
Sleep
Found an app for LJ so I can use it on my phone easier. I don't really enjoy typing on here all too much though. It might entice me to update more often, and that's always good. I've been in bed for a full 23 hours now and fully intend on sleeping till the morning. I don't think I'm depressed but who knows maybe I'm just not AS depressed as ( Read more... ) -
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Finally up after sleeping since Sunday night. I'm sure I slept 35 out of the last 48 hours. So terrible. So I took my adderall and am now in a let's make plans with everyone I know mood. Thank god no one has texted back cause I know this feeling will be gone within hours. Sometimes this happens and I regret it for the next week cause all the ( Read more... ) -
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I'm reading the book 'Madness' by Marya Hornbacher. Melissa and I used to read her book Wasted over and over again till the book was raw. She writes about her eating disorder in the book Wasted, but in this book she talks about her Bipolar Disorder. I feel jealous, because everything I wanted to show the world has already been written down by ( Read more... ) -
Hitherto
It feels like forever since I've gone on livejournal. It's an old friend though, and old friends are always good to go back to. I stuff my emotions down so much that I feel like there's nothing going on around me. I think my medication is working so I'm in this inbetween stage of not being depressed but not being happy. I don't like it. I like ( Read more... ) -
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So fucking tired of life ( Read more... )