I got up this morning and had a hard time getting the cobwebs out of my head.
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Ok. I’m trying to get my bp down. My utter FURY down. My tears back. And I can’t even remember when I was last Furious!

Uncle Arnold, Moms lying brother who Lied to is for YEARS about the circumstances around Moms disappearance and told us he had a missing persons filed on her and after years of us doing our own searches and asking him he ... of ( Read more... )

One of those nights for me. Lost in my past, floundering in my present, making me unsure of myself and my future.

I’m now 51. Does this Ever go away? All the questions. All the searching for the “whys”. All the back and forth tug inside myself.

A meme I saved loonngg ago said, “and in the end, all I learned was how to be strong alone.”

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I’m nervous about tomorrow’s brunch.
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I’m damn proud of the progress I’ve made in changing my whole Lifestyle around. Which in turn has put me in a healthier place. On all levels. Physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. And all their subcategories under that. I am digging in my heels and not allowing myself to accept incorrect labels and projections placed onto me. Not ( Read more... )

Being invisible sucks.

Being ignored sucks.

Being undesired sucks.

Being told your negatives more often than positives sucks.

Feeling nothing will change sucks the most of all.

Anti-climatic, like everything else.

This commercial shows a woman doing cross country running.
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Been reading this old journal, from present and traveling backward in time.
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Dressed up in a new blouse (felt nice) and went out to buy baubles at the craft store and decided last minute to go out to dinner. Bought a couple journals. One for poetry. One for whatever, I shall see. Maybe will end up a gift, my daughter comes to mind. Had a mediocre time. Good food though. Home again, sipping my bulletproof coffee and ( Read more... )