As I sit here alone, I let my thoughts swell inside my head. Alone. Alone. Alone.

It’s quiet except for the sounds of Fiona Apple on the radio. “I’ll know” she sings… My mood is easy and melancholy. Easy as a Saturday night, if that’s a thing. I keep searching for something within arms that won’t satisfy me. Men who have their own men who aren’t ( Read more... )

Recently I was told to “keep my mouth shut” by a gentleman I was “seeing”. I couldn’t help but wonder if he was right. But then again, this is me. I’ve never been silent. I’ve never hid my life from anyone. Never kept secrets from people. Only things I was sworn to secrecy did I keep to myself.

The rule of thumb with me has always been: If you don’ ( Read more... )

still here. just been busy with work, dui stuff, and the atlanta eagle raid fun. and trying to get a photo project off the ground. i'm around, just seems that i'm not home as much. need to start taking the laptop with me i think.
hope everyone out there is doing well.
i need to get back into creativity. i've been running myself into the ground.
-N

I was put into the contest in the middle. I stayed for a few weeks. I bombed. I have such a mixture of emotions about this. A tie breaker was announced. I was away for the weekend. I had this feeling in the pit of my stomach that I needed to check up with LJ to make sure something like that wouldn’t happen. I just wasn’t around a computer and not ( Read more... )

please read the many wonderful entries in this weeks LJ Idol and vote for not only mine but all your other favorites.
my entry:
boiconfessed.livejournal.com/62963.html

the polls:
community.livejournal.com/therealljidol/314554.html
thank you

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http://thesongsproject.blogspot.com/

check it out

-N

i'm very excited right now. after so many terrible things that have happened, i've taken that and turned life into something great again.
i have a HUGE project in mind. and if i had a private jet it would be global, but for now it's going to have to be local.
creativity has always saved me, this may be the biggest save for me so far.
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All of my life I’ve struggled. Struggled to be myself. To be free. To truly fly.
I’ve felt trapped for a long time. Trapped by my religious upbringing. Trapped by hurtful words that people use as weapons. Trapped by my own fear.

I don’t have many fears, so when I am afraid of something I’m afraid of it big time! I’m a perfectionist, so I’m afraid of ( Read more... )

about to finish up my LJ Idol entry. tired. long day. i must get it done. will post in a bit