i'm scared that i gave into you and now it seems as if your desire for me has faded... maybe it is true what they say... you only want what you can't have.... well you can have me now so does that mean you don't want me? or am i just klinging to you like plastic wrap?

please tell me you want me too and that i am not the only one

so i got a job at albertsons today and i've been talking to my ex since i got home... it's wierd i kind of miss him sometimes but i only miss the beginning of our relationship... the end of it sucked really bad. it got to the point that if we weren't drunk we didn't have a clue who the other person was. it's sad but that's how it ended ( Read more... )

i want to be happy like this again...


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it seems latley like the only thing i'm good at is letting people down. fuck i'm sorry... i don't know what to do things are different now. i want to move and i've turned a lot of people against me because of it. i just want to go and do something far away... i mean i need to get away from my family and prove that i can survive on my own. i feel ( Read more... )

this is what i do when the sun is coming up:


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i do this at least once a year... i start to feel gross... like i look gross i feel gross and i hate my self, so i go and get my nails done and start to think about how i need to be more girly... i need to dress nice and grow my hair out, all that good stuff. but then i realize i will just be fake like all the girls i hate. when i was with my ex i ( Read more... )

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i have no clue what i am doing ( Read more... )

how can you look at me and tell me you care when she's there in your mind? do you honestly believe that i would want to start a relationship with you after i found out? i have no clue what to do with you? i have someone else who is awesome but i have to clue what is going on... if something doesn't happen soon i'm giving up and becoming a sexual ( Read more... )

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