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Had a bad day the camera don't lie
So... Had a bad day. Well not bad more like sad. Couldn't stop moping and feeling a tightness in my chest :/
Ended up crying lots to my mom. Everything is all changing at once and I'm not ready.
I hate how I look and am nervous as hell about moving. Afraid I won't keep losing or that I don't know what to expect from the job the apartment etc! I don't ( Read more... ) -
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Having a bad day...
Want to cry but can't.
They say recovery gives you life back... I feel like its sucking mine away more than the Anorexia did.
I wish I was poetic so I could write poems about how I feel. My thoughts are just swimming in my head and I feel like they are drowning me.
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“We turn skeletons into goddesses and look to them as if they might teach us how not to need.” - Wasted
This whole book describes my whole life. the beginning about her going to interlochen fine arts camp and learning about all the tricks and tips and ways of her anorexia felt exactly like me my sophomore year of college. it just kind of took hold ( Read more... ) -
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Remember how I was 127 in august less than a month ago and now I'm 139? my body sucks. I suck. I wish I'd never tried to put food back in my life. Sooooo upset. Being fat is ruining my life. Literally ruining it. :( I cant go out with friends, cant do rocky, cant even feel decent in public. Fml. It's terrible I'm fattttt if I could take it all back ( Read more... ) -
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Why why why am I so fat?
Answer: food
Need to stop eating. fuck
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Every month it's time for fresh starts new goals blah blah...
Well until I figure out my health and why I can't lose weight no matter what I'm just gonna have to suck it up and live fat for a bit... Hopefully not long.... It's hard to get up in the morning with less and less clothes fitting :,(
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Fatttttttty
I feel like a pig...
Ate
Salad with mushrooms
Broccoli
Cauliflower soup
Grapes
Shoulda fasted. Fail.
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