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ok last one... really...
haha its fuckin over... this is the new best day ever. the papers are all signed, i got all my shit back, and i never have to speak or think about cassie and the paid for by mamas boyfriend that she has leaching off of her. oh yeah sorry i guess hes a DJ. nice profession. i suppose i shouldnt slander him i mean he is better than me and thats ( Read more... ) -
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you know what on second thought fuck livejournal and all it stands for im fuckin done with this fuckin thing... peace. -
yay...
im getting out of oly for the weekend... yay for me... though its sort of a moot point. as soon as the weekend is over and i get dropped off at my house all the misery is gonna come racing back with three days of interest. yay for being alive and all the feelings that come with it (sarcasm). i hate this. i wish things could have been -
falling apart...
i had this dream last night... i was in the shower in some house that i had never been in... from the shower i could vaguely see the living room and i could see the dining room through the kitchen. my entire family was there upto and including my recently divorced wife... there was only one problem, there was someone else taking my place. ( Read more... ) -
crap...
not having a car fucking sux... they said that it should be done by monday... man i hope so hitching a ride to work sucks. though i dont know i think i might continue to take the bus to school everyday... its cheaper than driving and paying for parking and on top of that it makes me get up on time because i have to catch my bus... either who ( Read more... ) -
quick summary
pills, drink, jail sucks... good thing i didnt have school or work this morning. -
strange
im starting to wonder if misery is indeed a blood toxin... it seems that everytime i gross exercise my liver i feel a lot better the next day... well after i am done feeling like shit that is. who knows maybe one day they will figure that one out. i refuse to believe that making retarded drunken updates on the internet journal that was designed ( Read more... ) -
i want my brain to die...
i have to get ready for school in 1 hour... i haven't gotten good sleep since like friday night i think. my doctor is a strange man. he told me "she cant hurt you... you can only let yourself be hurt." whaaat a load of craaaaaap. she hurts me very badly. either she doesnt even know (or care) or shes trying really hard... i am gonna lean ( Read more... ) -
"emotional barrier"
like i said the doc put me on anti-depressants... his rational is that i am supposed to use them as an "emotional barrier". this got me thinking. what happens when that emotional barrier gets over whelmed. then where the fuck am i gonna be? i just really wish that i could hide under a rock and die. i am so tired of myself and my thoughts that ( Read more... ) -
woohooo...
doctor gave me anti depressants today... a never ending supply of them.