broken cudicle...injured sole...plastic soul...broken survival

[britbratson]

I think I'm broken. This problem physically is really hurting me emotionally. I feel...unable. I feel like I would be one of the species to die out because of failure to survive natural selection. Because when you look at the big pictre, in this world mental intelligence doesn't count. It's physical strength and verbal wit that gets you along

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[mrjesuskiwi]

I wish I could hug you and make you feel better. I know you and I aren't too terribly close but if you ever need to talk I'm all ears...Always here for you even though we're not the best of friends. oxoxoxo

[britbratson]

Thanks Kayleigh, I really appreciate your concern.

[randomunderling]

I don't know what's wrong, but whatever it is I hope you know that it will get better, that you're an awesome person, that I admire you for being open with your feelings, and that I wish you didn't have to feel badly about yourself.

[britbratson]

Amanda...thanks for caring. I know I never really talk to you, but that's just because I'm so...Ben. I wanted to tell you that it meant a lot to me that you said hey to me in the hallway today...I like it when people I don't normally talk to all that much acknowledge I'm there. It gives me a sense of...existence. Thanks again.

[britbratson]

*sigh* I really wish I hadn't included that whole "embarassed purchase" thing...I always say things on these online journals that I hate myself for later. I'm surprised Kelsey will even talk to me anymore. Oh well...I guess I'm just being critical of myself. Sam...the reason I don't ever call you and we don't hang out is because you have started hanging out with (not that I'm blaming you, we all get our different friends) people that I don't think like me, like Zach or Nick...and I just don't like to be around people who make me feel bad about myself. You know I love you Sam, and the fact that I have a girlfriend won't change that. I guess the employee bathroom is kinda clean...i dunno...but I really wish there was a mirror in there so I could make myself look less...pathetic when I go back to work. Le sigh.

[britbratson]

And Sammie, dearest, I'm sorry to delete your comment, it's nothing against you....I've just decided that what I said in the entry and the reference to it in the comment shouldn't have been posted in something so public...a mistake in my judgement to put such personal information online.

[purplelight]

yay, now we can quit school and start that musician thing

[britbratson]

Let's get a van and a little extra money and figure out a road plan and leave...forever. Hell....fuck the road plan...let's just go wherever...I don't care, as long as it's you and me.

[pretendingfairy]

see I know you are nowhere near as female as you think you are because a woman would not have spelt cuticle wrong. it may have been a typo, I know I know, because you are just so damn intelligent. ben, you are one of the wisest, smartest, funniest, exuberant, brighten up your day, people I know. and It just kills me to see you like this. I know it's not as easy as "cheer up" but things will get better with time. Time heals all wounds.

[purplelight]

ben, i found out how to spell cuticle the other day from my cousins girlfriend

and i have decided that is a werid hard, hard word to spell
and i am proud of leanne for being able to spell it

[pretendingfairy]

why thank you, I AM talented

[purplelight]

...you keep thinking that