oh boy, am i disillusioned with college.

more to come.

even though i sincerely doubt anyone is reading this.

What happens when you eventually reach the epiphany that you've become everything that you formely saw as detestable and deplorable for a person? What happens when you realize that you've become that piece of shit that you always claimed you never wanted to be ( Read more... )

The thick smoke curls up along his face, and there's an indescribable beauty to it. The effortless ascension of the smoke as it climbs and slowly vanishes into thin air. He makes it look so easy. Then, he begins to wonder how much longer he can hide the turmoil that he's been holding back. How much longer can this facade remain stable ( Read more... )

So we'll start this off with some analysis of a personality complex that I discovered in myself tonight. When I see a girl with another guy, and when I understand that she's a great girl, I usually want only the best for that girl. People don't deserve to be treated like shit for the most part, unless they particularly enjoy treating others like ( Read more... )

Some stupid fucking revelation, another teenage epiphany. My days of disposable income have come to an end, and it's nothing but surreal. A simple, three-minute conversation: I've put a man behind bars, and he will probably never recover from this. That three-minute call and suddenly I don't have time to be a kid anymore. It isn't my place. I ( Read more... )

It's not often that you can see the stars around here at night. It's therapeutic, calming, especially at this particular juncture for me. It's just another girl, and that's what I'll keep telling myself. She's only a girl. I'll hear all about her silly decision, her immaturity, how it wasn't me, and all that other bullshit from countless other ( Read more... )

So the week of finals is now in progress, so I've been trying to relax. Blah blah. I just felt like updating because of some amazing news. Apparently, KnuckleLove Music, an independent hip-hop label, based in good ol' Chicago, took a nice little listen to Little Lamb. (If you haven't, www.purevolume.com/littlelamb, or www.myspace.com/ ( Read more... )

New Year's Eve is tomorrow night, and depressingly enough, all I could really go for is a nice, sincere, and completely uninfluenced kiss. No alcohol leading to this kiss, I don't want to think that this is just any other kiss. And of course, I have someone in mind for this, and this is what I'm posting about. I can't tell what it is, but I feel ( Read more... )

So, it's sad this doesn't suit you now ( Read more... )

Growing up as the oldest son of an Air Force serviceman was certainly not the least complicated upbringing. So far to date, I’ve lived in six different states: Colorado, North Dakota, South Dakota, California, Kentucky, and finally here in Illinois. Over the years, learning has helped me to habituate myself to new places. A quick adjustment for ( Read more... )