I go through phases of posting. But I think this could be a good way to sort myself out. My bullimia is spiralling out of control so I need to sort it out. I need to eat small amounts throughout the day. I despise all the skinny girls...my frends. I despise the people hu think that getting a disorder is fun or good. I despise myself. I get so angry ( Read more... )

I just can't sort myself out. I don't seem to binge as much anymore...but im throwing up more. I can't cope if I eat a meal tat completely fills me up..it dosn't work.  I hav to get rid of it. I desperately just wanna loose more weight. I need to keep thinking to myself just to not eat otherwise ill put myself through the torture of throwing up... ( Read more... )

Ok, Havn't written for ages, I'm alot calmer now exams are over ( Read more... )

Wahoo! Lowest weight! It's June and I'm trying not to have any binges! Today is only day 5,...but watching the scales go down from 129.8 on the 1st June to this is awsome! I havnt had time to exercise much either coz of exams so after today ill have more time for that to. It's quite tough sticking to this diet as its the same food everyday but i ( Read more... )

So....broke down big time today. Just cried my eyes out with mum...i just cant cope with this anymore...plus the stress of exams. Im gonna set a new plan up. It isnt as tight and allows more choice....but still healthy and so hopefully ill loose some flab!
Lets hope for once ill stick to somthing!

Wahoooo!
I got to 123. But tomorro im not weighing coz I binged out in France today. But ill punish myself with running tomorro and lax's tonight! Fun funfun!!
Im on such a sugar high its hard to even concentrate!

So I binged. I fasted all day friday at least. I think it was bcoz  I was drinking last night that today I just caved in. Btu as its half term im going to go to the gym every evening and run 10km..and do other stuff. That way i shud start shedding the pounds! I know I shouldnt but im going to take laxatives tomoz to empty me out.....but im dredding ( Read more... )

Im going to weigh myself tomorro. I havnt eaten since Thursday night and I'm not planning to untill tomorro. I had quite a bit to drink last night but I hope it wasnt too bad for me. I also feel quite blocked up so Iv bought som more laxative thats Im going to take tonight. 
This half term is going to work!
Want somthing...Work at it!

I binged really bad last night that I cuoldnt face the scales this morning.  I just thort I'd get too upset. So today im fasting..and im going to try and carry it on to tomoro. I've got a party tonight so I hav gin and slimline tonic. Hopefully the empty stomach will mean I wont hav to drink too much to get drunk! I also went to the gym today. I ( Read more... )

Wahoo I'm down!
But dam me....I binged! So I know tomorro the scales are gonna wack up the number!
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
Im so annoyed and I hav that horrid really full feeling...and I promised myself I wouldn't binge. Im soo annoyed! I guess I'm going to have to start a new plan tomorro! Lots of exercise....I want to return from half term and ( Read more... )