i love listening to music without words, i can interpret it my own way, think what i want to think while listening to it. currently my thoughts are jumbled, i'm so stressed out and i just want all of this stress to end. i hate the stress of homecoming, i hate feeling guilty all the time. i wish i could lock myself up and get good at trombone, get ( Read more... )

relaxing weekend. i practiced about 2 hours of trombone yesterday, and around an hour and a half today, and friday i practiced about an hour and a half. that was good ( Read more... )

went to lunch with him today.
he's beautiful.
i had mahler 2 playing in my car when we got in, and then he was like, no wayyy you listen to classical!?!?
and i was like, no way you listen to classical ( Read more... )

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that's pretty much what i'm feeling right now, i don't know how to describe it.

crushes that come back whenever i see certain people are just, i don't know. maybe this time i'll have guts to say something, because i think that's why nothing happened the last time i liked him.

finally wrote a draft for my illinois essay. worked a lot on the scholarship portion of the kansas application. though i still have to write an essay for it. just bullshitted my physics homework.
i'm sad, and i don't know why. this feeling comes far too often.
david archuleta came out with his first single, i'm in love with that boy!

i was definitely really excited about school starting

then school actually started and my first day actually sucked. the end.

i was going to go see him play in a concert last night ( Read more... )

i'm pretty sure it isn't normal to have to push myself in to be accepted by my best friend. another one of those nights last night ( Read more... )

crush.

music is becoming stressful. i have my college audition music, in my house. but i'm fighting the urge and not playing it until i can hopefully be comfortable with a new embouchure. plus i need to buy a new trombone... and sell mine that i have now.

its all happening so fast, and very stressful.