an Update. Finally. I've been doing semi alright. There are alot of things im not over, and im trying so hard to get over them.. So, im going to write more about people who have hurt me the most ( Read more... )

So i thought..what better way to not fall to peices? write a vent. So im sitting here, scott and nicole are sleeping out on the living room floor and late night depression has kicked in, and if you just read you're most likely like "Oh god.. emo." or.."I'll read this later.." and never do... or "I don't know how to help her.." Just a little advice ( Read more... )

Im going to list some more friends, family, or ex's.. and you'll have to guess if you're listed of not. 1-6 but in all actuality theres nine. You don't have to take the time to read them all, but yeah.. its appreciated if you do ( Read more... )

I took this from my friend dave and thought it to be a good idea ( Read more... )

Been going through alot.. i'll update you all later on it, but most of you probably know.. Happy Throw yourself into moving vehicles day (valentines day)

We're just teens god, and we have to take on so much.. under developed, lost, we barely even know ourselves and things just come into play to drag us down. God its so hard.. its so fucking hard.

I love her and at first i was angry with her for leaving, i still feel guilty, i still feel regret, theres not a second that goes by that her picture doesn't enter my mind. she will always be my grannie and i sware i will always be her baby. Very few memories exist of her in my mind but i fight so hard to keep them there. She taught me so much and ( Read more... )

The pain is completely in control of me but im still fighting it. My will power is too stronge to let it win. I just can't help reminising in memories of when i felt happy, when i felt stronge and in control, when i felt stable. The depression is getting worst and worst, it hurts so bad to think. I lay in bed at night and stare at the ceiling and ( Read more... )

Look, im sorry. Im sorry for making mistakes, i know i've made several. Im sorry that i said stupid things, did stupid things, im sorry that i hurt you, or you, or your friend. Im sorry that i said that. Im sorry i assumed. Im sorry because you believe im selfish, but what i said to dawn that night was something i was keeping private, i was only ( Read more... )

I haven't updated in so long because i felt hurt, Someone told me something very hurtful and i didn't wanna bother anyone with my emotions.. But i can't keep it in anymore.. it hurts way too bad ( Read more... )