So update time...I don't feel like I've had much to go on or write about since I've been back. I feel like this is all part of some twisted show and yours truly, is the luminescence of the would-be star. I don't feel all too much like I'm supposed to be here. I really don't feel like I should be here in this house as the world passes by. I feel ( Read more... )

Well I guess by you reading this, most of you will notice that I'm not in boot as scheduled. And some of you may ask..."Why?" Well let me take the opportunity to answer that. On the morning of my departure, as I was heading into the shower, my mom approached me with a more or less, easily described, ultimatum. She hands me a NY State dog ( Read more... )

So guess what?...I'm going to boot camp a little...fucC That!- A whole lot earlier than I expected. And well I couldn't feel more stressed or angry right now. I'm leaving either tomorrow night (Tuesday) or Wednesday morning. But I guess there's no choice but to go. I have to leave this early because if I want to go through with the split ( Read more... )

And can we please have a moment of truth?
For soldiers and troops away with helmets and boots
And families back home who pray they make it home safe
Hopin' that they don't get hit with a stray or missiles
This is just a moment to let you all know that we miss you
Mommy I'm still here, wishin' I was there with you
Let's take 'em home -Quan ( Read more... )

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. ( Read more... )

Maybe I should strangle myself right now...Who knows...But I regretted not being able to go and see Eddie off to the bus as I usually always do. It's all again because I can't stand to fucCing argue and I just don't know what to do with myself half of the time. I really can't imagine being here for too much longer. This, I'd imagine, isn't too ( Read more... )

I don't understand it sometimes...Why occasionally one will go into small, teeny, tiny spells of nostalgia. But it happens. And one can only strive to look for some other means or alternative to direct their attention to, in hope of being able to get past it. I can only hope to make it past certain things. Lonliness is one of them. It's not ( Read more... )

This is just a poem I wrote. Don't ask why it was written, it just was. It's for me to know and for you...well...not to know. But it is derived from what lives inside me...Enjoy ( Read more... )

Re-capping on this past couple of days, I realize that there's just so much about me that is just somewhat indescribable when it beckons for reason. I don't know much else of what to do or say about it, for I know it won't ever change. As much as I could ever pray for it to be altered, for as much as I look into my own body from the outside, ( Read more... )

Starting Sunday, I kinda well moved in with Adam for the fact that MY MOTHER DRIVES ME NUTS. Any little thing she gets on my ass about. Like I was ready to fucking flip over the fact that, I took the time to go and make dinner I made some steak with some wild herb rice and a salad. The first thing I hear when she walks in, "What the hell are you ( Read more... )