My life is severely lacking testosterone. How hard is it to find someone who is up for hanging out & drinking beers in the sun and people judging... er, watching...
The list of characteristics I now look for in someone involves the following;
Wants a relationship
Intelligent
Career minded
Social
Taller than me
Encouraging & supportive
Fit & look after ( Read more... )

Why do I bend over backwards for boys who break my heart but run a mile when one dares to love me??
I need to be alone.

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An awesome job came up and I was told to apply for it but I'm kicking myself because it's not really the right time. I've got TAFE until October, Uni starting up again and I've only been at Pole Divas for 4 months. This job would be full-time, good pay, great benefits, amazing workplace and the perfect industry. But... not right now. I've got heaps ( Read more... )

I give everything I have to everyone else. I have no free time, no personal space and no leisure. I get minimal sleep, wear my whole wardrobe before washing day and still haven't finished unpacking from moving house. I have no time to buy groceries. I accept shifts on my days off and come in for meetings without arguing. I say yes when I should say ( Read more... )

If I say it enough I'll convince myself, right? I can barely get put of bed right now, let alone talk myself into being positive. It's probably all the work and not having a day off, never getting to sleep in and always having things to do. Next week I might get to have a day off on Sunday, maybe even Thursday too, apart from getting ready for Miss ( Read more... )

I really need to go to California. Like really really... actually need to pay off all my debts & loans and have my surgery and then save up and buy a plane ticket. Winning the lottery would help. Not drinking will help. Selling all of my belongings won't help much.
That's it. I'm covering my inspiration board in pictures of Pole & Hoop and ( Read more... )

1. The state of my finances. Too much many debts & bills.
2. My current workload, not even study. 55+ hours of work a week...
3. The feelings I have for one person and not another.
4. My level of fitness and strength, especially at pole.
5. Jager's determination to keep me from sleeping. Such a pretty kitty but fark.

So fucking tired. Tempted to just ( Read more... )

When you go back through your intoxitexts from the night before and don't regret a single thing.

I always kind of knew that whatever I found would be temporary but I don't really want to break a heart as pure as this one. So sweet and caring and eager to please. So pretty. We really do have a great time together and I really like him but this is not ( Read more... )

Feel like I am sucking at my job lately. Just through being sick and having no energy and just feeling really uninspired. I just kind of want to dance and study and work my fluff job. I dropped a couple of my projects due to not having enough time and I had to transfer my TAFE classes to another campus because of having a week off sick. I was doing ( Read more... )

...I has it.

I hate being a burden. I hate asking for help. What I really need though, is someone whose shoulder I can cry on when I'm so tired I can barely eat, so busy I can barely think, and so overwhelmed I can barely breathe. But instead I go out with friends for a couple of drinks just long enough to forget my never ending list of tasks & ( Read more... )