one day im going to be so happy. there won't be anymore fighting or any reason to not go home because i'll have a place of my own and my own life. i won't be reminded everyday how much i dont mean anything in life. and how i'm nothing. i can't wait for that day when my mom looks at herself in the mirror and just fucking hates herself for everything ( Read more... )

im really not that cool, so i don't really see what the big deal is. i guess i'm just really confused about some things right now. but, i'm sure things will work out. i just wish the insecurity would go away. i dont know.

if i could run away i swear i'd take you with me. but this place has got the best of us again. and it won't. just go

reply with your name and i'll:

1. respond with something random about you.
2. tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. tell you Something I hate about you.
4. say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. tell you my first memory of you.
6. tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. ask you something that i've always wondered ( Read more... )

I wish i could be eternally blind to who a person really is.

I don't want to know. I want to keep the image in my head from when we first met. I only build myself up for dissappointment. Even if we are really good friends.

FUCK!

if i knew i wouldn't brake my hand, i'd punch a wall right now.

ask me any 6 questions.

1.__________?
2.__________?
3.__________?
4.__________?
5.__________?
6.__________?

...i have to get the fuck out of here.

im moving out. finally.

[EDIT] Oh! and im sending in all of my information to audition for the musical RENT! on Broadway in NY. I'm not sure whether it will be for the touring broadway production or the broadway production NY. either way its cool. im excited...for once.

i gave up on myself so long ago...

...i dont even know how to be alive.
im dead inside.
i don't even know myself.

you dont even know what reality or life is. or what its all about. any of you.

goddamn this shit sucks.

HEROIN godDAMNIT!

im still fucked up. AEWSOME! actually i feel shitty. but i lvoe everyone from last night and im srry to KRISTIN! because last night was ridiculous. annnnnnnd i wish kelly ws there. and that Jessmay stayeed. i dont even know what i did last night but it was crazy. i love you kids.