Well today's the day I'm supposed to gather up the courage to go wait in that emergency med clinic to get anti-anxiety medicine. Will I do it, or will I chicken out.

Film at 11.

I got an email today asking me to come down to a Honeywell job fair they're holding in a couple of weeks. I got the request because of an internet resume I sent to them months ago.

I'm really excited about this, but a couple of things worry me.
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I checked out the following from the library:

-The Hobbit (VHS)
-Fellowship of the Ring (DVD)
-Two Towers (DVD)
-Return of the King (VHS)

The funny thing is that both The Hobbit and Return of the King are both animated versions, while Fellowship of the Ring and Two Towers are both the recent film versions. I plan on watching them consecutively, ( Read more... )

I'm coming to feel just how unimportant life really is. I don't know why I've always thought I was special, but I have. I always felt, by nature, I was a superhero protecting good. Couple that with things like organizing a blood drive in the 2nd grade and winning a bunch of awards in elementary school, one of which was winning the school spelling ( Read more... )

My glasses are pressing into the side of my head. I wonder if that hurts bloodflow to the brain. I wonder if I should take them off ( Read more... )

At times I feel like things have died and re-risen. I was looking at my cat today and that feeling hit me hard. Like she shouldn't have been here somehow. She'd died. And yet there she was. In the moment. Somehow ( Read more... )

( Random Things )

I found these garden and basil vegetarian pizza burgers that taste EXACTLY like the snack bar pizza I ate for 8 years at my elementary school ( Read more... )

I think the trick to awareness is to have both your conscious and subconscious focused on the same thing. This is what I've previously called immersement, and that's a perfect name for it. The hard part is, when your subconscious is focused on a thing, it ISN'T focused on being focused on the thing. That is, your interest lies not in being focused ( Read more... )

I usually don't make New Year's Resolutions. Because of internal issues, I usually don't see things through, so why make a resolution I know I won't keep. There's also the issue of me worrying that I'm too ineffectual to pull anything off, and also my worrying that a strict adherence to a resolution or resolutions could jeopardize my learning to ( Read more... )