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That Guy You Know
It's been a year and two months since my last post. In my last post I made a case for all the reasons I can take control of myself and make the most out of my transition. I haven't done anything, exercise wise. I've had fits and starts, then an interruption, then excuses. It's been three years since I accepted myself as a man, and two years since I ( Read more... ) -
2 months since I had 2 boobs
Sunday was two months since surgery. I finally dragged myself back into the gym yesterday, two weeks after I had clearance to. In my defense, I was sick. Tonsillitis. Only second time I've had it. Last time was in Toronto in fucking winter. This one wasn't as bad ( Read more... ) -
Update from a completely different person
I read back on my previous entries to see how far I needed to fill you all in. I feels like I’m reading the diary of someone else, remembering how I felt in those circumstances. Decipline has never been a strength of mine. I put off writing here. I barely wrote in my personal diary. Many entries that run out of focus effort after a paragraph or two ( Read more... ) -
Listen to my muscle memory. Contemplate what I've been clinging to. Forty-six and two ahead of me.
It's been a while between posts, I know. I've been writing, but writing about stuff I wouldn't put on the internet. I've been keeping a diary on and off for the last year or so, it's been really helpful. Handwritten, which helps keep me from editing it. I have a tenancy to be anxious about what I write and edit before I ever really get anywhere. ( Read more... ) -
A Month
So it's been a month on testosterone. Or at least it will be tomorrow. The changes are coming, and becoming more obvious by the day ( Read more... ) -
Merry
Few weeks between updates. I've had a kind of laziness about updating since I've started T (a grand total of 13 days ago) . Procrastination mixed with an uncertainty of what to say. I've started things. Next big era ( Read more... ) -
Can't sleep, clowns will eat me
Today is the big day. T day. It's 3.16am and I'm wide awake, haven't slept a wink. I was so close to passing out earlier this evening, and now I'm buzzed as fuck because I've let myself think myself up a storm. I can't stop thinking about the future. About what tomorrow could start. What will begin, and what is entirely in my control to create.
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Someone paid for me to talk to people and it went well
Been a little while since I've posted here. Not that I haven't had things to say or to write about, I just honestly didn't get around to it.
I was invited to speak at a conference in Sydney run by Pride in Diversity, the organisation that helped me come out at work. ( Read more... ) -
Mister
As of yesterday, Medicare officially knows me as male. While this is more for practical reasons (testosterone can only be prescribed to males under Medicare, which makes sense) but internally this feels huge. The government, or at least a part of it, knows I'm a man. It feels so official. Just with a quick change on my profile, I've gone from an F ( Read more... )