Trying to, at least.  Problem is, I feel the need to make my point, so I keep arguing with him.  I brought up all kinds of things... how he accuses me of lying, how he doen't want me to do anything, how he wants me to drop everything.... all he manages to reply to?  The fact that he lives with one of his ex's ( Read more... )

Well, I called him when I got home because I promised I would.  Just to let him know that I got home ok and all.  He didn't seem that concerned with my well-being, just when I was coming back.  I told him I couldn't take any vacation time soon.  Then he said he'll come here.  I told him I still can't take vacation time.  He said I didn't need to.  ( Read more... )

Well, not completely.... but here I am, at the airport in California waiting to get on my plane.

I feel so bad though.  I really see no reason to continue with Joe, but I don't want to hurt him.  When he dropped me off he kept telling me that we could just keep driving and disappear.  I know he really wants me to stay.  Problem is, he's never really ( Read more... )

Well, Joe did come back the next day.  And like I thought, he tried to act like nothing happened.  He asked if I was grumpy and tried to kiss me.  I shoved him away and told he that he left me alone.  After a little bickering back and forth and a lot of silence, he asked if we could just drop it.  So I did ( Read more... )

What do I do ( Read more... )

After much thinking about it, and talking with a few friends,  I now know.....

I'm still in love with Bill.  Very much so.  And I want him back.  Very much so.  But......

Not until he gets some help.  He really does drink way too much.  Also, he is still very angry at me.  It comes out when he drinks.  So.... he needs to seek some counciling.  I just ( Read more... )

I really need to get away.  My attitude and mood at work is getting dangerously bad.  I swear, as soon as I walk in the door, I'm snapping at everyone.  It doesn't help in the slightest that my new boss is an absolute jackass.  The man wouldn't know work if it bit him in the ass.  He still micromanages everything.  And he's yet to work a 40 hour ( Read more... )

Going through my head ( Read more... )

Tonight Bill got into another big fight with his girlfriend.  He called, asking if we could talk about it.  Trying to be the friend, I said yes.  I guess I shouldn't have.  He hardly talked about her, but did try to talk about us.  I'm not ready for that.  I told him that.  But he still tried to prod.  Finally he left.

After he leaves, I'm talking ( Read more... )

That's it... just some days.

I think I may be doomed.  I've been doing my best to distance myself from Joe.  Not a lot, but just enough to hopefully not get so attached to him.  Well.....  in the past he's attempted to make me jealous.  He would tell me about women he met or talked to, how they said he was cute, etc.  And it never bothered me.  I ( Read more... )