i'm seriously considering deleting my facebook account. i never really wanted it in the first place--the girls at the studio set it up for me because they wanted to be able to stay in touch when we all went our separate ways. not that i don't want to stay in touch with them (and all the other people on there). but ( Read more... )

next time, i think i'll try that instead of trying to have a conversation. less crazy and more of a chance of surviving intact ( Read more... )

i had to laugh in the shower this morning. i realized the reason i take such long showers is im just standing there being warm because its something to do.

if you've never cried in the shower before, i recommend it. it really is a bizarre sensation.

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searching for someone elses words to explain how you feel is just as hard as trying to find your own. but then you ask yourself, "why does it matter? who do i really need to tell?" and the silence just makes sense. maybe there's nothing really to say. maybe this will pass. maybe the needles in your brain finally deadened a nerve.

"what matters most is how well you walk through the fire ( Read more... )

so much for going to the movies ( Read more... )

spent 5 hours last night getting into it with my parents worse than i have since i was a teenager. i couldnt leave the fucking room no matter how insane it got. and we fucking PASSED insane ( Read more... )

ive written countless pages in my notebooks--random lines and paragraphs scribbled almost illegibly trying to capture the hundreds of thoughts and feelings as they pass in and out of my awareness like images of dreams i can almost remember. clear as still water one second, pulled away by the current the next. the first time i felt this i was high ( ( Read more... )

"if i have a choice, i'll take the voice i've got, cuz it was hard to find."

damn straight.

on an unrelated note, can anyone recommend any kickboxing schools in the area?