my dreams are like a scott foley video. lots of dramatics and visuals. music in the background that is unrecognizable. contagious. i think dreams are that moment.. where you can't figure out what to do, but instead there is no reasoning, no analyzing. you just make decisions. i figured out i haven't been talking to my mother enough and that i ( Read more... )

it's mine & celeste's 7(ish) year anniversary. every time i add the "ish" she scrunches her nose. i don't really care though because i'm a realist and everyone & their brother knows we broke up so it's only appropriate. i've never felt the need to dumb down the actual situation. and she didn't want to change the date, so whatever. i'll let her have ( Read more... )

first holiday without any family.. ever. it makes for an incredibly eerie, slightly depressing day. the weather is appropriate for the evening, gloomy, muggy, uninviting. it's a big bummer that i'm not remotely interested in tagging along with celeste's family today. they are just weird, stuffy and uncomfortable. it's just not even an option to me ( Read more... )

a lot is happening. and it's happening fast. i ended up skipping the cake extern interview and going straight for bakermans. nailed it in the interview and already have all the exit extern paperwork signed and turned in. one less (large) thing to worry about. the hours are perfect for being unpaid, tues/wed, sat/sun morning shifts. i went to this ( Read more... )

everything is going so quickly now. i think i've woken up early almost every day this week to get things accomplished. interviews, banks, realty office, dps, life. i am about to go to an interview at a cake shop today. i don't even have my portfolio ready and although i need to fill this extern, i'm not quite sure i would like it to be at this ( Read more... )

i don't know how i managed it but my inquiry of moving out on sunday, house looking on wednesday turned into signing a bunch of papers and turning in three checks today. it's a little surreal but i am so happy it's silly. also i turned in my resume to practically every bakery in austin. i have a interview at a cake shop but i want options. geeze i ( Read more... )

the tiny cottage was bigger than i thought it would be. with a fenced in (shared) backyard. it had a separate bedroom, which i did not expect, and a little front coat room. when i walked in, i just knew it was right. after looking around for a minute the tenant came in & it was sarah loden. so crazy! that made it feel like the most perfect crazy ( Read more... )

tiny like the cottage i put in a rental inquiry about ( Read more... )

i've decided to let swuusi planning come organically. and put it on the back burner completely until YAWR comes around so i can focus on school without extra stress ( Read more... )

Fly off from harder days ( Read more... )