life isn't fun anymore. i'm unhappy. honestly, now more than ever before, i'm a lost soul who has lost his mind. this weekend i went on yet another 72 hour drinking binge; fantastic. i hate my life ( Read more... )

first off: if you didn't read my aim profile, let me explain something about my last entry. i have this crazy idea that one day i am going to write a book. i have a ton of ideas, and i just recently started putting some of them into words instead of just floating around in my head. since i like to share pretty much anything i write, i posted ( Read more... )

Versuche, as a young man, was full of ambition. Rather misunderstood ambitions, at that. This is a short story about his struggle for acceptance and success both in his life, and in history ( Read more... )

nothing to write about, but at least this gives me an excuse not to be studying for my finals this week. i have a few random things flying around my head, so if you are trying to follow a logical progression throughout my topics, prepare to be frustrated and throughouly confused. once again, i'll try to label these, so if you have absolutely no ( Read more... )

since it was the most-read entry i've written so far, i figured it was imperative that i post a quick followup. this won't be the most interesting entry ever, in fact, it will most likely be outright boring. but if you are bored, i guess it will help pass the time ( Read more... )

i have a problem. my problem is that i have an addictive personality and i love the self-inflicted pain that accompanies abusing my body. if you take a cross-section of my life and look at any individual day, i typically don't drink more than an average person would on that day. my problem is, i can't stop. i love the highs and the lows of my ( Read more... )

so i've said it a million times, but every time i say it, i feel guilty and selfish for saying it. ever since jarrett passed away, i've been blessed with good luck. the reason is simple, i believe jarrett is my guardian angel. i honestly believe that i'm living my life for the both of us, and he is up there making sure that i get through, that i ( Read more... )

there are few things on or about this earth that i hate more than winter. lately i've been hearing a lot of people commenting about the beauty of fall because of the leaves changing colors, and i realized that fall only means winter is on the way. most of the leaves have already started to die and fall off, decomposing into waste, which parallels ( Read more... )

okay. before i start this entry, i need to explain a few things. last night, after jotting down some of my quick hits, i did a little bit of drinking. now, in case you don't know, i recently had to move into my parent's basement after a series of unfortunate events that culminated with me having a choice between being homeless or moving back ( Read more... )

since i'm never home long enough to write in this thing, i thought i'd just put down some quick thoughts for the day ( Read more... )